Sunday, October 30, 2005
Technical is just another word for "Doesn't work when it's supposed to"
Yeah, I'm a bit bitter.
I spent all of yesterday and part of this morning trying to set up the new hard drive... on another computer... and it doesn't work... and no one knows why. The BIOS doesn't even load most of the time now. The only theory I have left is that somehow we damaged the motherboard in such a way to damage the connections so that the BIOS cannot run most of the time; that the keyboard stops working at the same time and that the hard drive is disconnected. Except I didn't touch the damn thing.
And so that's the story behind the title of today's journal entry/my MSN name for the day.
Outside of that... well there is no outside of that. It's the only thing I've been working on for the past day since I posted last.
No Linux for me until that gets fixed - as much as I'd like to just switch completely to Linux, I'd like to keep windows around for a bit longer. Not to mention my harddrive is NTFS at the moment which Linux cant read. And I don't have a DVD player... which I need.
Ah well. Life goes on. I've got other shit to work on.
Laterz
- Dep
I spent all of yesterday and part of this morning trying to set up the new hard drive... on another computer... and it doesn't work... and no one knows why. The BIOS doesn't even load most of the time now. The only theory I have left is that somehow we damaged the motherboard in such a way to damage the connections so that the BIOS cannot run most of the time; that the keyboard stops working at the same time and that the hard drive is disconnected. Except I didn't touch the damn thing.
And so that's the story behind the title of today's journal entry/my MSN name for the day.
Outside of that... well there is no outside of that. It's the only thing I've been working on for the past day since I posted last.
No Linux for me until that gets fixed - as much as I'd like to just switch completely to Linux, I'd like to keep windows around for a bit longer. Not to mention my harddrive is NTFS at the moment which Linux cant read. And I don't have a DVD player... which I need.
Ah well. Life goes on. I've got other shit to work on.
Laterz
- Dep
Friday, October 28, 2005
so... exhausted... need... food...
Yeah, I'm a tad out of it at the moment.
Large amounts of bureaucratic nonsense going on with the study-aid website. Hopefully we'll get through that soon and start actually DOING something. On the positive side of things, I get Dreamweaver templates this weekend so I can start my code.
The grant proposal is going well except the meeting was cancelled tonight so I'm wondering wtf are we going to do. But hopefully we can work something out.
This weekend I finally get my new 40GB harddrive which, combined with my 19GB harddrive, means I'll finally have the room to install Linux on my system. Which is good as I downloaded Fedora Core IV last night which will be my first foray into using Linux at home. Don't expect to see me around much tomorrow afternoon - I'll most likely be reinstalling crap (though I'll try to get Messenger enabled on both FC4 and WinXP before other things).
So yeah - that's about all for now. Maybe some poetry - who knows. I'm gonna try but I'm also very tired. And dehydrated so I'm gonna go rectify that.
*hugs to y'all*
Laterz
- Dep
Large amounts of bureaucratic nonsense going on with the study-aid website. Hopefully we'll get through that soon and start actually DOING something. On the positive side of things, I get Dreamweaver templates this weekend so I can start my code.
The grant proposal is going well except the meeting was cancelled tonight so I'm wondering wtf are we going to do. But hopefully we can work something out.
This weekend I finally get my new 40GB harddrive which, combined with my 19GB harddrive, means I'll finally have the room to install Linux on my system. Which is good as I downloaded Fedora Core IV last night which will be my first foray into using Linux at home. Don't expect to see me around much tomorrow afternoon - I'll most likely be reinstalling crap (though I'll try to get Messenger enabled on both FC4 and WinXP before other things).
So yeah - that's about all for now. Maybe some poetry - who knows. I'm gonna try but I'm also very tired. And dehydrated so I'm gonna go rectify that.
*hugs to y'all*
Laterz
- Dep
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
I so blew it...
I was writing our proposal to Computer Services to request disk space for our study-aid website, hosting, the works. I had my entire email composed, the document already prepared and checked by three people. I was psyched and ready. The email was written, the To, CC and BCC fields filled out... and I hit send.
And a few hours later I get an email back saying "Hi Robert. You forgot to attach the document."
FUCK NUTS
Yeah, I'm pissed at myself for FORGETTING an important attachment.
But... well it can't be too bad. Everyone's had me forget an attachment to them at least once.
Other than that, things are good. I witnessed a bad break up today... a good friend of mine broke up with another good friend of mine at PTY because he can never find the time to come see her except at PTY and the very rare other days. It was really sad - they both were crying, but it was something she had to do and, to a point, I agree with her. There is a limit on how long you can go, not making or just not having that time to spend with your significant other before they just get fed up and leave. And yeah, it can be a bitch to fit into your schedule, but sometimes you just gotta make the time for whats important to you. If your significant other repeatedly goes into the unimportant catagory, well that's going to make them feel slighted and leads to breakups like this.
Alright . They're both good friends of mine just perhaps some things are not meant to be. I'm not going to judge either of them for their actions, but she has a point. Perhaps he does as well. All it means is that it's not working and she had the right approach to it.
So yeah
I'm exhausted so I'm off to bed in about twenty once I finish some crap.
*hugs to y'all*
g'night
- Rob
And a few hours later I get an email back saying "Hi Robert. You forgot to attach the document."
FUCK NUTS
Yeah, I'm pissed at myself for FORGETTING an important attachment.
But... well it can't be too bad. Everyone's had me forget an attachment to them at least once.
Other than that, things are good. I witnessed a bad break up today... a good friend of mine broke up with another good friend of mine at PTY because he can never find the time to come see her except at PTY and the very rare other days. It was really sad - they both were crying, but it was something she had to do and, to a point, I agree with her. There is a limit on how long you can go, not making or just not having that time to spend with your significant other before they just get fed up and leave. And yeah, it can be a bitch to fit into your schedule, but sometimes you just gotta make the time for whats important to you. If your significant other repeatedly goes into the unimportant catagory, well that's going to make them feel slighted and leads to breakups like this.
Alright . They're both good friends of mine just perhaps some things are not meant to be. I'm not going to judge either of them for their actions, but she has a point. Perhaps he does as well. All it means is that it's not working and she had the right approach to it.
So yeah
I'm exhausted so I'm off to bed in about twenty once I finish some crap.
*hugs to y'all*
g'night
- Rob
Monday, October 24, 2005
Update
whoa, I'm exhausted. Too exhausted to be writing. Probably the lack of caffeine.
Before I go find some liquid nourishment (which I lack) I suppose I'll do an update for you brave people who still read my journal. I feel like my readership has gone down but that's what happens when your life ceases to be a random collection of dramatic moments and turns into something more... normal.
On the positive side of things, life is more enjoyable without those melodramatized tragic moments.
So here I am - my biggest worry at the moment is project-related and outside of that its how am I going to tell my teacher that her ASP.NET book got a little bit... wet in my bah. GAH!
No seriously though. I think I see what Daren's on about with his 'not caring' ideals. Except 'not caring' is the wrong way of putting it - more like not letting things get to you. I'm a lot less mopey, funner to be around (so it has been said) and I feel a lot better about myself. It's even improving my self-confidence and my desire to take part in the world. Maybe my problem has never been other people or the world around me. Maybe my problem is that I drag myself down. Oh I'm sure you could point to reasons for it, but in the end when I made the concious choice to be happy even in negative circumstances... well here I am.
It's still regrettable that things had to go this way, but perhaps this'll lead to something new and better. :)
Anyways, yeah.
I'd like to rant, but I suppose I'm not going to. It's about somebody I know and somebody you know, so I'll keep it to myself for the time being. Maybe go over to LiveJournal where no one knows them lol.
anyways, I'm gone to bed
*hugs*
laterz
- Rob
Before I go find some liquid nourishment (which I lack) I suppose I'll do an update for you brave people who still read my journal. I feel like my readership has gone down but that's what happens when your life ceases to be a random collection of dramatic moments and turns into something more... normal.
On the positive side of things, life is more enjoyable without those melodramatized tragic moments.
So here I am - my biggest worry at the moment is project-related and outside of that its how am I going to tell my teacher that her ASP.NET book got a little bit... wet in my bah. GAH!
No seriously though. I think I see what Daren's on about with his 'not caring' ideals. Except 'not caring' is the wrong way of putting it - more like not letting things get to you. I'm a lot less mopey, funner to be around (so it has been said) and I feel a lot better about myself. It's even improving my self-confidence and my desire to take part in the world. Maybe my problem has never been other people or the world around me. Maybe my problem is that I drag myself down. Oh I'm sure you could point to reasons for it, but in the end when I made the concious choice to be happy even in negative circumstances... well here I am.
It's still regrettable that things had to go this way, but perhaps this'll lead to something new and better. :)
Anyways, yeah.
I'd like to rant, but I suppose I'm not going to. It's about somebody I know and somebody you know, so I'll keep it to myself for the time being. Maybe go over to LiveJournal where no one knows them lol.
anyways, I'm gone to bed
*hugs*
laterz
- Rob
Sunday, October 23, 2005
midterms
Midterm marks are in people.
French: 79
Knowledge: 90
Programming: 93
Operating Systems: 95
Math for Computers: 97
Web Programming I: 99
the courses go well...
I suppose everything goes well. Nothing to really complain about.
WEBSITE:
Yeah, we have to push through a lot of stupid people getting in our way of helping people chea... I mean study of course. No seriously, it's a website meant to help people study. Sure people are going to skip class and get the notes later - they'd do that anyways. Some people don't need to go to class, some people would do it anyways. Sure there's the odd few who wouldn't skip if our website wasn't around, but that's how it goes, I suppose. Make any resource available and people will take advantage of it. Outside of the bureaucratic idiocy, things are going extremely well. We put our design team together last Thursday and they said they'll have some ideas for us by Monday. I got promoted to Assistant Project Leader when Jake realized that the two of us would be the ones pushing for things - though i'm still in charge of web design. Everythings going well on that end and we should have the test site up in a week and a half.
PTY:
PTY is going good. I'm in charge of writing a grant proposal now, which I'm slightly worried about, but we have a good team helping me.
XIRIAN:
Xirian... goes. I'm a bit worried about the terms of my agreement with Chris, on the grounds that some of what we discussed isn't possible and so we need new terms and if we can't agree on them, then the Java designs I've spent awhile putting together are worthless and need to be shreaded. I remember, last year, a person who used to be a friend of mine (Kat for those of you who know her) did work for somebody without a contract and then got herself screwed over. Considering that, I'm not inclined to do any more work for Chris (well maybe do the work but not give it to him) until the terms are settled.
WORK:
Job hunting, I haven't done in awhile. There's been a lot of extra stuff, volunteer work mostly, on my plate and I just haven't had the time. I'm kindof glad I have had this weekend off - it gives me time to do some things, like seeing Vicki last night and brushing up on my StarCraft skills so I can kick peoples asses at school. (yeah we play starcraft at school - we're lazy sometimes).
LOVE:
Who knows. As I said last time, some interesting prospects, though I'm worried one of the likely ones is a complete ditz (which is... rather offsetting) but we'll just have to wait and see won't we? Things go well in any case - I'm not moping and life is generally good.
Anyways, that's about it for now.
*hugs to all*
Laterz
- Dep
PTY:
PTY is going good. I'm in charge of writing a grant proposal now, which I'm slightly worried about, but we have a good team helping me.
XIRIAN:
Xirian... goes. I'm a bit worried about the terms of my agreement with Chris, on the grounds that some of what we discussed isn't possible and so we need new terms and if we can't agree on them, then the Java designs I've spent awhile putting together are worthless and need to be shreaded. I remember, last year, a person who used to be a friend of mine (Kat for those of you who know her) did work for somebody without a contract and then got herself screwed over. Considering that, I'm not inclined to do any more work for Chris (well maybe do the work but not give it to him) until the terms are settled.
WORK:
Job hunting, I haven't done in awhile. There's been a lot of extra stuff, volunteer work mostly, on my plate and I just haven't had the time. I'm kindof glad I have had this weekend off - it gives me time to do some things, like seeing Vicki last night and brushing up on my StarCraft skills so I can kick peoples asses at school. (yeah we play starcraft at school - we're lazy sometimes).
LOVE:
Who knows. As I said last time, some interesting prospects, though I'm worried one of the likely ones is a complete ditz (which is... rather offsetting) but we'll just have to wait and see won't we? Things go well in any case - I'm not moping and life is generally good.
Anyways, that's about it for now.
*hugs to all*
Laterz
- Dep
Saturday, October 22, 2005
updates
Woohoo - here's an update.
Today - I changed the settings on my wonderful browser FireFox & Windows XP to this cool silver style. I'm in love.
Projects continue to go well - I've got a tad of homework to do this weekend. The study-aid website is coming along nicely, we got the graphics people onboard on Thursday and they're debating Flash and other options. A couple more weeks and I may even have a demo to show people lol.
... yeah, there's not really much to update about is there?
I'm doing good. Moderately enjoying being single in that I have a lot of spare time on my hands now to read or do other stuff. I am looking though so wish me luck
Anyways, I'm gone
*hugs*
- Rob
Today - I changed the settings on my wonderful browser FireFox & Windows XP to this cool silver style. I'm in love.
Projects continue to go well - I've got a tad of homework to do this weekend. The study-aid website is coming along nicely, we got the graphics people onboard on Thursday and they're debating Flash and other options. A couple more weeks and I may even have a demo to show people lol.
... yeah, there's not really much to update about is there?
I'm doing good. Moderately enjoying being single in that I have a lot of spare time on my hands now to read or do other stuff. I am looking though so wish me luck
Anyways, I'm gone
*hugs*
- Rob
Saturday, October 15, 2005
so... very... exhausted...
I have no clue why - probably a complete lack of caffeine in the last 24 hours.
Anyways, I'm here to say it's all going great. Despite the fact that I'm tired beyond all belief... it really is going well.
I've spent a lot of time settling old issues with people so that there remains nothing of the past to deal with. Those people who didn't want to solve anything (and there are a few), I've somehow found a way to just stop caring about whether or not they care about me. And it's working. They're exactly as much of a part of my life as they want to be and I don't find myself wondering about them or constantly running after them. Not that I don't care about them, more that I have resigned myself to the fact that they simply don't want to have very much, if anything, to do with me. Having accepted that, I have eliminated the guilt I felt over it.
Too much of my life have I spent trying to please and impress people. I realize that that was not a healthy thing to me and I'm definately trying to change it. Not that I'll flip 180 and start ruthlessly persuing my own interests regardless of others, but I will maintain a balance of the two.
Anyways, I have a massive headache so I'm off to bed. Tomorrow we shall see where things go.
*hugs to y'all*
- Rob
Anyways, I'm here to say it's all going great. Despite the fact that I'm tired beyond all belief... it really is going well.
I've spent a lot of time settling old issues with people so that there remains nothing of the past to deal with. Those people who didn't want to solve anything (and there are a few), I've somehow found a way to just stop caring about whether or not they care about me. And it's working. They're exactly as much of a part of my life as they want to be and I don't find myself wondering about them or constantly running after them. Not that I don't care about them, more that I have resigned myself to the fact that they simply don't want to have very much, if anything, to do with me. Having accepted that, I have eliminated the guilt I felt over it.
Too much of my life have I spent trying to please and impress people. I realize that that was not a healthy thing to me and I'm definately trying to change it. Not that I'll flip 180 and start ruthlessly persuing my own interests regardless of others, but I will maintain a balance of the two.
Anyways, I have a massive headache so I'm off to bed. Tomorrow we shall see where things go.
*hugs to y'all*
- Rob
Thursday, October 13, 2005
weehee
I'm so dehydrated it isn't funny. And tired.
Long talk with Daren - interesting and a bit worrisome.
On the other side of things...
As I said yesterday, life is looking up. I'm in a generally good mood, the website is moving along, love may be moving along.
I saw Sin City tonight - great movie. Little gory for my taste, but worth watching. Afterwards, Steve drove me home and he expressed shock at how I was single and told me that I could do really well with a girlfriend - and I think he offered to set me up.
So life really is looking up. I'm gaining back friends I never even knew I had, old friends like Steve and I are starting to talk again and everythings just... wonderful.
I love my life and I just wanted to share that with people because sometimes I cannot believe how perfect things are starting to go. It's amazing what confidence can do.
Anyways, I need water and sleep for my 10AM class.
*hugs to y'all*
Laterz
- Rob
Long talk with Daren - interesting and a bit worrisome.
On the other side of things...
As I said yesterday, life is looking up. I'm in a generally good mood, the website is moving along, love may be moving along.
I saw Sin City tonight - great movie. Little gory for my taste, but worth watching. Afterwards, Steve drove me home and he expressed shock at how I was single and told me that I could do really well with a girlfriend - and I think he offered to set me up.
So life really is looking up. I'm gaining back friends I never even knew I had, old friends like Steve and I are starting to talk again and everythings just... wonderful.
I love my life and I just wanted to share that with people because sometimes I cannot believe how perfect things are starting to go. It's amazing what confidence can do.
Anyways, I need water and sleep for my 10AM class.
*hugs to y'all*
Laterz
- Rob
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
uberness
Good story to tell people today.
I was waiting for the bus and there was a woman waiting there with me. I thought she was attractive, I've seen her around before (actually she takes my bus into Aylmer sometimes - she lives in Aylmer) and have contemplated getting to know her better but, as usual, I'm shy when meeting new people so I hadn't seriously done anything about my curiosity.
So we get on the same bus together, take seats on different ends of the bus. My thoughts stray one way and another, floating between should I go talk to her or should I sit here and build a webpage in my head. Unfortunately, shyness won and I built a webpage... in my head.
I go to get off the bus and, surprise surprise, she's getting off with me. And she says hi to me.
It was then that I knew... that I goofed.
So I said something I can't quite remember and we got off the bus and talked on the way to the Rideau Centre and I learned her name was Lianne and that we knew each other from way back when in elementry school, then again in philemon and now we go to Heritage together.
Apparently downtown on a blind date, but she's 30minutes late because of her class running late. So I escort her around, trying to find her date... whom we find. And then I'm off to PTY.
... ironically enough, I find myself hoping that the date didn't go well. Why? My own, purely selfish reasons. I mean... hey if it did go well, good for them... i just... anyways, too early for such thoughts. I'd like a chance with her.
And I won't fuck it up like my last chance. It'll be hard to - live in the same city... go to same college... I'm single... she would be single... easy situations to deal with.
anyways, that's my good day.
went to PTY, did an interview to become a team leader - which I got pending my criminal record check... and as I don't have a criminal record, I'm good. Had fun at PTY, met a new and interesting person who reminds me a bit of myself... actually a lot of myself. Would like to get to know her better.
So, in essence, life is looking up, there are opportunities to be explored and like Daren says, I'm just going to go with the flow.
*hugs to y'all*
g'night!
Rob
I was waiting for the bus and there was a woman waiting there with me. I thought she was attractive, I've seen her around before (actually she takes my bus into Aylmer sometimes - she lives in Aylmer) and have contemplated getting to know her better but, as usual, I'm shy when meeting new people so I hadn't seriously done anything about my curiosity.
So we get on the same bus together, take seats on different ends of the bus. My thoughts stray one way and another, floating between should I go talk to her or should I sit here and build a webpage in my head. Unfortunately, shyness won and I built a webpage... in my head.
I go to get off the bus and, surprise surprise, she's getting off with me. And she says hi to me.
It was then that I knew... that I goofed.
So I said something I can't quite remember and we got off the bus and talked on the way to the Rideau Centre and I learned her name was Lianne and that we knew each other from way back when in elementry school, then again in philemon and now we go to Heritage together.
Apparently downtown on a blind date, but she's 30minutes late because of her class running late. So I escort her around, trying to find her date... whom we find. And then I'm off to PTY.
... ironically enough, I find myself hoping that the date didn't go well. Why? My own, purely selfish reasons. I mean... hey if it did go well, good for them... i just... anyways, too early for such thoughts. I'd like a chance with her.
And I won't fuck it up like my last chance. It'll be hard to - live in the same city... go to same college... I'm single... she would be single... easy situations to deal with.
anyways, that's my good day.
went to PTY, did an interview to become a team leader - which I got pending my criminal record check... and as I don't have a criminal record, I'm good. Had fun at PTY, met a new and interesting person who reminds me a bit of myself... actually a lot of myself. Would like to get to know her better.
So, in essence, life is looking up, there are opportunities to be explored and like Daren says, I'm just going to go with the flow.
*hugs to y'all*
g'night!
Rob
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Hints are taken and taken well
*sighs* apparently some things are not meant to be. ah well - I'll deal with it.
On the positive side of things, I've discovered PHP and made it my God. Web page design just got a million times less complicated with it. I only hope I can use it at school - which apparently I can.
Anyways... yeah, not much to talk about tonight. Just trying to fill the void as I wait for my website to load onto the Flash drive.
switching to private blog I suppose
hugs
-Rob
On the positive side of things, I've discovered PHP and made it my God. Web page design just got a million times less complicated with it. I only hope I can use it at school - which apparently I can.
Anyways... yeah, not much to talk about tonight. Just trying to fill the void as I wait for my website to load onto the Flash drive.
switching to private blog I suppose
hugs
-Rob
Sunday, October 09, 2005
brief update before sleep
One) there's a new poem on my poetry blog (link is to the right)
I feel really depressed today. I think it's a combination of a lot of things. I'm trying not to let it bother me, but sometimes I find I can't do that. The poem is about one of them - I need to think about how to express the other in the right manner.
Anyways - that's all for now. g'night.
hugs
Rob
I feel really depressed today. I think it's a combination of a lot of things. I'm trying not to let it bother me, but sometimes I find I can't do that. The poem is about one of them - I need to think about how to express the other in the right manner.
Anyways - that's all for now. g'night.
hugs
Rob
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Haha! Google!
Man... I find that to be among the most hilarious things I've ever encountered in my life. Even though I should be pissed, ticked off and I certainly am angry to a point - I somehow can't keep myself from laughing.
A lot of you are wondering wtf I'm smoking now. Well I'll tell you. Later. Not now. For those of you, in the know - HAHA GOOGLE! WTF! A FIRST!
Other than that
I didn't get the job - they want somebody who can work 8am-5pm and who's a fulltime student. Which makes no sense to me, but hey.
But I was put in charge of building the student's website (by students for students kind of thing). We should be having meetings soon to put together what and who we need and the proposal goes through today.
Asides from that, life is good :).
HAHA FUCKING GOOGLE!
lol
*hugs to y'all*
Dep
A lot of you are wondering wtf I'm smoking now. Well I'll tell you. Later. Not now. For those of you, in the know - HAHA GOOGLE! WTF! A FIRST!
Other than that
I didn't get the job - they want somebody who can work 8am-5pm and who's a fulltime student. Which makes no sense to me, but hey.
But I was put in charge of building the student's website (by students for students kind of thing). We should be having meetings soon to put together what and who we need and the proposal goes through today.
Asides from that, life is good :).
HAHA FUCKING GOOGLE!
lol
*hugs to y'all*
Dep
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Welcome to October
It's the changing of the month and I've got a new bus pass and we're in business.
POSITIVES:
I have, yet another, offer from the wonderful people at FSWEP (Federal Student Work Experience Program). As much as people may complain about the government, I'd love to work with them. If I do it well, then I perhaps get a good recommendation; perhaps it will lead to future jobs with them and government work is ALWAYS good to have on your resume. What's the job? "Intranet Development Officer". What does that mean? I get to build webpages for CBSA (Canadian Border Services Agency) both for their interal network and, I believe, for their internet webpage as well. It's ten hours a week, so it it's too stressful and it's doing something in my field of choice, which is always good. Cross your fingers, my resume went in yesterday.
School is going extremely well. My averages are still all above 90; the teachers love me; the other students like me (or at least, don't hate me in some cases) and it's just uber-great environment.
I discovered http://bash.org which is a website full of funny IRC quotes. I can't get enough of their love.
My restructured plan for my finances is going well at its two week mark. My savings account actually has money in it (gasp) a whole $80 lol.
Plans for visiting Sudbury have fallen through however, due to this lack of money I have available to spend. However, Christmas may be on should I get the job. We will have to wait and see.
However, I am still planning on going to see Sonata Arctica in Montreal on the 21st. I may think of cancelling the trip if Vicki doesn't want to go as I'd really like to have somebody to go with, but here's hoping she can talk her mother into it.
I've been 'promoted' if you will, at PTY. I'm now a Team Leader, which means I help out and do stuff. Go me.
Speaking of PTY, hopefully the lovely Victoria will be accompanying me on the 12th, which is awesome.
My work on Xirian is going well. I'm finding myself in the constant process of refining my ideas now, and generalizing where and what I can. It's not always easy to keep the big picture going in my head, but some how I'm managing.
I feel like a completely different person than I was awhile ago. I've lost a lot of the obsessive qualities I had; indeed I can entertain thoughts about people without developing even a bit of an obsession about them. It's more like "Gee, that would be nice, maybe it'll happen one day" and my brain goes on to other things. It's much more relaxed and I find myself happier more often (if not as happy) than I have been in a very long time. I'm not planning on passing opportunities up, but nor am I that obsessed with finding them. I have other things in my life to occupy me, like my schoolwork and Xirian (and perhaps a new job!). In general, the world looks good to me.
NEGATIVES
Poetry... well I think I've given up writing poetry for the time being. I just don't have the words inside to write anything meaningful. I don't feel really down about it, it just kindof happened. Maybe it's the lack of strong emotions in my life now. I don't think of any women in an incredibly obsessive manner, so I don't mope about them or rave about them. And that's all my poetry essentially was. Maybe occasionally I'll have some philosophical stuff for you, or I'll go through a bad patch of nostalgia, but I really just have nothing to write about. It's sad in a way, but also encourgaging.
I can't remember the CS definition of an algorithm, because it's so bleepty bleep different from the math definition. I will get it one day.
Logic in math is beginning to twist my brain, but I'll survive.
I'm trying to reduce stress in my life right now, by settling things which have bothered me (and I've keept inside). The next one of these is Mary. For a while, I've been in the position of having to handle both my own parents and Mary, when it comes to Vicki and I doing things. As Mary and I see almost oppositely on various issues, especially related to how much young adults should be able to do and, as such, I feel frustrated when I'm forced to convince her of something and what she's telling me makes no sense whatsoever. So I am definately going to have a talk with Vicki and see what we can do to settle this in a manner that means I don't have to deal with Mary as much.
Other than that, things are good all around. Life is looking up.
I'm going to go work on some code.
*hugs to all*
Laterz
Dep
POSITIVES:
I have, yet another, offer from the wonderful people at FSWEP (Federal Student Work Experience Program). As much as people may complain about the government, I'd love to work with them. If I do it well, then I perhaps get a good recommendation; perhaps it will lead to future jobs with them and government work is ALWAYS good to have on your resume. What's the job? "Intranet Development Officer". What does that mean? I get to build webpages for CBSA (Canadian Border Services Agency) both for their interal network and, I believe, for their internet webpage as well. It's ten hours a week, so it it's too stressful and it's doing something in my field of choice, which is always good. Cross your fingers, my resume went in yesterday.
School is going extremely well. My averages are still all above 90; the teachers love me; the other students like me (or at least, don't hate me in some cases) and it's just uber-great environment.
I discovered http://bash.org which is a website full of funny IRC quotes. I can't get enough of their love.
My restructured plan for my finances is going well at its two week mark. My savings account actually has money in it (gasp) a whole $80 lol.
Plans for visiting Sudbury have fallen through however, due to this lack of money I have available to spend. However, Christmas may be on should I get the job. We will have to wait and see.
However, I am still planning on going to see Sonata Arctica in Montreal on the 21st. I may think of cancelling the trip if Vicki doesn't want to go as I'd really like to have somebody to go with, but here's hoping she can talk her mother into it.
I've been 'promoted' if you will, at PTY. I'm now a Team Leader, which means I help out and do stuff. Go me.
Speaking of PTY, hopefully the lovely Victoria will be accompanying me on the 12th, which is awesome.
My work on Xirian is going well. I'm finding myself in the constant process of refining my ideas now, and generalizing where and what I can. It's not always easy to keep the big picture going in my head, but some how I'm managing.
I feel like a completely different person than I was awhile ago. I've lost a lot of the obsessive qualities I had; indeed I can entertain thoughts about people without developing even a bit of an obsession about them. It's more like "Gee, that would be nice, maybe it'll happen one day" and my brain goes on to other things. It's much more relaxed and I find myself happier more often (if not as happy) than I have been in a very long time. I'm not planning on passing opportunities up, but nor am I that obsessed with finding them. I have other things in my life to occupy me, like my schoolwork and Xirian (and perhaps a new job!). In general, the world looks good to me.
NEGATIVES
Poetry... well I think I've given up writing poetry for the time being. I just don't have the words inside to write anything meaningful. I don't feel really down about it, it just kindof happened. Maybe it's the lack of strong emotions in my life now. I don't think of any women in an incredibly obsessive manner, so I don't mope about them or rave about them. And that's all my poetry essentially was. Maybe occasionally I'll have some philosophical stuff for you, or I'll go through a bad patch of nostalgia, but I really just have nothing to write about. It's sad in a way, but also encourgaging.
I can't remember the CS definition of an algorithm, because it's so bleepty bleep different from the math definition. I will get it one day.
Logic in math is beginning to twist my brain, but I'll survive.
I'm trying to reduce stress in my life right now, by settling things which have bothered me (and I've keept inside). The next one of these is Mary. For a while, I've been in the position of having to handle both my own parents and Mary, when it comes to Vicki and I doing things. As Mary and I see almost oppositely on various issues, especially related to how much young adults should be able to do and, as such, I feel frustrated when I'm forced to convince her of something and what she's telling me makes no sense whatsoever. So I am definately going to have a talk with Vicki and see what we can do to settle this in a manner that means I don't have to deal with Mary as much.
Other than that, things are good all around. Life is looking up.
I'm going to go work on some code.
*hugs to all*
Laterz
Dep
