Saturday, October 15, 2005
so... very... exhausted...
I have no clue why - probably a complete lack of caffeine in the last 24 hours.
Anyways, I'm here to say it's all going great. Despite the fact that I'm tired beyond all belief... it really is going well.
I've spent a lot of time settling old issues with people so that there remains nothing of the past to deal with. Those people who didn't want to solve anything (and there are a few), I've somehow found a way to just stop caring about whether or not they care about me. And it's working. They're exactly as much of a part of my life as they want to be and I don't find myself wondering about them or constantly running after them. Not that I don't care about them, more that I have resigned myself to the fact that they simply don't want to have very much, if anything, to do with me. Having accepted that, I have eliminated the guilt I felt over it.
Too much of my life have I spent trying to please and impress people. I realize that that was not a healthy thing to me and I'm definately trying to change it. Not that I'll flip 180 and start ruthlessly persuing my own interests regardless of others, but I will maintain a balance of the two.
Anyways, I have a massive headache so I'm off to bed. Tomorrow we shall see where things go.
*hugs to y'all*
- Rob
Anyways, I'm here to say it's all going great. Despite the fact that I'm tired beyond all belief... it really is going well.
I've spent a lot of time settling old issues with people so that there remains nothing of the past to deal with. Those people who didn't want to solve anything (and there are a few), I've somehow found a way to just stop caring about whether or not they care about me. And it's working. They're exactly as much of a part of my life as they want to be and I don't find myself wondering about them or constantly running after them. Not that I don't care about them, more that I have resigned myself to the fact that they simply don't want to have very much, if anything, to do with me. Having accepted that, I have eliminated the guilt I felt over it.
Too much of my life have I spent trying to please and impress people. I realize that that was not a healthy thing to me and I'm definately trying to change it. Not that I'll flip 180 and start ruthlessly persuing my own interests regardless of others, but I will maintain a balance of the two.
Anyways, I have a massive headache so I'm off to bed. Tomorrow we shall see where things go.
*hugs to y'all*
- Rob
// posted by Dep @ 9:26:00 p.m.
