Monday, October 24, 2005
Update
whoa, I'm exhausted. Too exhausted to be writing. Probably the lack of caffeine.
Before I go find some liquid nourishment (which I lack) I suppose I'll do an update for you brave people who still read my journal. I feel like my readership has gone down but that's what happens when your life ceases to be a random collection of dramatic moments and turns into something more... normal.
On the positive side of things, life is more enjoyable without those melodramatized tragic moments.
So here I am - my biggest worry at the moment is project-related and outside of that its how am I going to tell my teacher that her ASP.NET book got a little bit... wet in my bah. GAH!
No seriously though. I think I see what Daren's on about with his 'not caring' ideals. Except 'not caring' is the wrong way of putting it - more like not letting things get to you. I'm a lot less mopey, funner to be around (so it has been said) and I feel a lot better about myself. It's even improving my self-confidence and my desire to take part in the world. Maybe my problem has never been other people or the world around me. Maybe my problem is that I drag myself down. Oh I'm sure you could point to reasons for it, but in the end when I made the concious choice to be happy even in negative circumstances... well here I am.
It's still regrettable that things had to go this way, but perhaps this'll lead to something new and better. :)
Anyways, yeah.
I'd like to rant, but I suppose I'm not going to. It's about somebody I know and somebody you know, so I'll keep it to myself for the time being. Maybe go over to LiveJournal where no one knows them lol.
anyways, I'm gone to bed
*hugs*
laterz
- Rob
Before I go find some liquid nourishment (which I lack) I suppose I'll do an update for you brave people who still read my journal. I feel like my readership has gone down but that's what happens when your life ceases to be a random collection of dramatic moments and turns into something more... normal.
On the positive side of things, life is more enjoyable without those melodramatized tragic moments.
So here I am - my biggest worry at the moment is project-related and outside of that its how am I going to tell my teacher that her ASP.NET book got a little bit... wet in my bah. GAH!
No seriously though. I think I see what Daren's on about with his 'not caring' ideals. Except 'not caring' is the wrong way of putting it - more like not letting things get to you. I'm a lot less mopey, funner to be around (so it has been said) and I feel a lot better about myself. It's even improving my self-confidence and my desire to take part in the world. Maybe my problem has never been other people or the world around me. Maybe my problem is that I drag myself down. Oh I'm sure you could point to reasons for it, but in the end when I made the concious choice to be happy even in negative circumstances... well here I am.
It's still regrettable that things had to go this way, but perhaps this'll lead to something new and better. :)
Anyways, yeah.
I'd like to rant, but I suppose I'm not going to. It's about somebody I know and somebody you know, so I'll keep it to myself for the time being. Maybe go over to LiveJournal where no one knows them lol.
anyways, I'm gone to bed
*hugs*
laterz
- Rob
// posted by Dep @ 9:45:00 p.m.
