Tuesday, November 30, 2004
flippin' flipping is over now
Thanks to Dragon, who gave me a good talking to today and made me realize what I want out of life (Andy) and that what other people thought shouldn't matter. I know Andy, you said the same thing yesterday but Dragon has a way of pounding things into my head so that they stick. So I hope this is the end to my lack of faith on this matter. We will be seeing each other in less than a month (27 days) and that'll make things vastly easier for us.
I know, I know, I never got around to writing Dawn! See, it was largely supposed to be based on Andy's visit here, but since that never happened, I never had a very good basis to write my story upon (as up to this point, I can only imagine what it would be like). But I'm going to try hard after the exams to get the second chapter done at least and posted for everyone to read, even if it's complete fiction at this point (as I'll be seeing her up in Timmins before she comes here).
Exams are in a week and I need a major study effort for them, so I'll be spending more and more time as the week goes on reviewing for the exams. I have to read most of the syllabus for English before next wednesday, read 6 chapters of my philosophy text and 4 chapters of my rationality text, review the semester in bio and chem and cal. (a total of about 20 chapters in bio or chem and about 4 in cal - but the cal chapters are huge and the bio/chem chapters are small.)
I feel as though there's a pit of negative emotion in my stomach and I can't really tell where it's coming from. Andy, can you either message me, call me or e-mail me sometime tonight (call before 11pm, message me if I'm on-line and e-mail me if you can't do either) just to let me know you're okay? Freya, if you come on-line tonight, same thing and be warned, I'll be calling you thursday night. And hugs to both of you and I hope you're both doing good.
Anyways, I'm off to bed soon... actually I have to install xp so I'll be doing that now and I may come back on-line afterwards, if I'm at all awake.
*hugs to Andy*
Later all.
I know, I know, I never got around to writing Dawn! See, it was largely supposed to be based on Andy's visit here, but since that never happened, I never had a very good basis to write my story upon (as up to this point, I can only imagine what it would be like). But I'm going to try hard after the exams to get the second chapter done at least and posted for everyone to read, even if it's complete fiction at this point (as I'll be seeing her up in Timmins before she comes here).
Exams are in a week and I need a major study effort for them, so I'll be spending more and more time as the week goes on reviewing for the exams. I have to read most of the syllabus for English before next wednesday, read 6 chapters of my philosophy text and 4 chapters of my rationality text, review the semester in bio and chem and cal. (a total of about 20 chapters in bio or chem and about 4 in cal - but the cal chapters are huge and the bio/chem chapters are small.)
I feel as though there's a pit of negative emotion in my stomach and I can't really tell where it's coming from. Andy, can you either message me, call me or e-mail me sometime tonight (call before 11pm, message me if I'm on-line and e-mail me if you can't do either) just to let me know you're okay? Freya, if you come on-line tonight, same thing and be warned, I'll be calling you thursday night. And hugs to both of you and I hope you're both doing good.
Anyways, I'm off to bed soon... actually I have to install xp so I'll be doing that now and I may come back on-line afterwards, if I'm at all awake.
*hugs to Andy*
Later all.
Monday, November 29, 2004
at last
I've completed my custom template, in which I fixed a lot of problems and picked a colour scheme I really like. Comments are, as usual, welcome.
Today I had some minor problems with a person at school who was complaing about Andy and I being together and she was making me feel down about the whole thing, but thank you Andy for your parents words of wisdom and I will follow them. You are what I want in life, and that's what matters the most. *hugs*
I'm off to bed now, I'll post more tomorrow night if I can get it in among the essay I must write.
*XOXOXO to Andy*
Later all.
Dep
Today I had some minor problems with a person at school who was complaing about Andy and I being together and she was making me feel down about the whole thing, but thank you Andy for your parents words of wisdom and I will follow them. You are what I want in life, and that's what matters the most. *hugs*
I'm off to bed now, I'll post more tomorrow night if I can get it in among the essay I must write.
*XOXOXO to Andy*
Later all.
Dep
Sunday, November 28, 2004
an update, yay!
So... zee plan.
I'm going to update, then I'm going to mess around with the format of this page again, because I'm with C-Dogg on this, it needs darker colors. I'll see what I can do about the chatterbox, but I've tried putting it in the sidebar and it doesn't really work with this template, but maybe I can fix that.
So on with the update
Party last night was awesome, I got really drunk and didn't go to bed until... 4:30AM or thereabouts. The best news of the evening is that Andy called and we talked for an hour, an hour and a half and one thing led to another and now we're going out again. YAY!
I have to start on her x-mas present very soon, in fact I'll probably find the stuff I need for it tonight and take it in to school tomorrow and do some work on it when in boring classes or not in class at all.
I discussed a trip to Timmins with my parents in order to arrange the financing and this is what we figured out. My parents/brothers are going to buy me round trip tickets to Timmins, leaving the 27th of December and returning the 3rd of January (leaving at 12:01AM on the 27th and as late as I can on the 3rd, I don't care if I have to sleep on the bus). I will have to pay for all my hotel costs, which I'm expecting will be $503. My parents will book the hotel and advance me the cash I need to pay for the hotel. I will pay them back over the next few months. I also need to take roughly $250 for food and other expenses while I'm there. To pay for all of this ($750) I'm putting my next month and a half allowence ($230), my savings bond ($200), most of the money I'm getting for christmas (est $150) and the rest I'll pay my parents back for over time.
We also talked about a trip in March to Waterloo, I figured I'll spend a day looking around Waterloo (preferably with Andy) and a day actually at the open house for the University, so I'm either going for a Monday/Tuesday or a Tuesday/Wednesday, depending on my courses next semester. My parents haven't decided whether or not they want to come with me, so it'll either be me on the bus alone or they'll drive me down for the two days.
They also would like to meet you, Andy, and therefore want you to come visit us sometime, when you can get away from uni.
Exams begin next week, which means I'll be spending most of next week studying for them. First up is English (which is the one I'm most afraid of) and then Philosophy, Cal, Chem and Bio, one a day from the 8th to the 14th (excluding the weekend)
I wrote the Canadian Open Mathematics competition last week and I think I did pretty well... I'm hoping that will help me get into Waterloo. The waterloo math competition and their computing competition take place sometime next semester.
Time for a story, children ;)
The Origin of Rabbits
Once upon a time, there was a young man and a young woman. They were in love, but they lived far apart, so they used the Internet for their relationship. Often, they would have sex over the internet, because both of them were very horney. One day, the woman got pregnant after one such romantic interlude but instead of taking 9 months, the pregnancy took only 9 hours. 9 hours later, she gave birth to 16 tiny children, who were all fuzzy (A result of too much furry porno on the man's part). These 16 children immediately started interbreeding and 9 days (or 27 generations later) the house was overflowed with these small fuzzy creatures. To get rid of them, the woman shoved them all out of the house. Finally the house was empty. Out in the wild, the creatures fucked like crazy, having so much sex that eventually they became immune to it's pleasure. They had so many kids that it was insane, there were just too many. One person one day noticed that they fucked so often they were the epitome of the ancient expression "to fuck like rabbits" meaning quite often. Thus they were named rabbits. Finally the woman got so fed up that she went and got all the rabbits neutered. After a while, all the rabbits died out, so the man and the woman (now together) decided to create a monument to the fuzzy white creatures. They had a giant fuzzy rabbit shaped plush toy created and they used it as a bed and lived happily ever after. (the giant fuzzy rabbit even had chains in the perfect places too!) The end.
Okay, I'm crazy and in a bad mood, I'll admit it (and by bad, I mean naughty) so I'll leave everyone alone and just go fuck with my settings on this blog.
LAter all!
I'm going to update, then I'm going to mess around with the format of this page again, because I'm with C-Dogg on this, it needs darker colors. I'll see what I can do about the chatterbox, but I've tried putting it in the sidebar and it doesn't really work with this template, but maybe I can fix that.
So on with the update
Party last night was awesome, I got really drunk and didn't go to bed until... 4:30AM or thereabouts. The best news of the evening is that Andy called and we talked for an hour, an hour and a half and one thing led to another and now we're going out again. YAY!
I have to start on her x-mas present very soon, in fact I'll probably find the stuff I need for it tonight and take it in to school tomorrow and do some work on it when in boring classes or not in class at all.
I discussed a trip to Timmins with my parents in order to arrange the financing and this is what we figured out. My parents/brothers are going to buy me round trip tickets to Timmins, leaving the 27th of December and returning the 3rd of January (leaving at 12:01AM on the 27th and as late as I can on the 3rd, I don't care if I have to sleep on the bus). I will have to pay for all my hotel costs, which I'm expecting will be $503. My parents will book the hotel and advance me the cash I need to pay for the hotel. I will pay them back over the next few months. I also need to take roughly $250 for food and other expenses while I'm there. To pay for all of this ($750) I'm putting my next month and a half allowence ($230), my savings bond ($200), most of the money I'm getting for christmas (est $150) and the rest I'll pay my parents back for over time.
We also talked about a trip in March to Waterloo, I figured I'll spend a day looking around Waterloo (preferably with Andy) and a day actually at the open house for the University, so I'm either going for a Monday/Tuesday or a Tuesday/Wednesday, depending on my courses next semester. My parents haven't decided whether or not they want to come with me, so it'll either be me on the bus alone or they'll drive me down for the two days.
They also would like to meet you, Andy, and therefore want you to come visit us sometime, when you can get away from uni.
Exams begin next week, which means I'll be spending most of next week studying for them. First up is English (which is the one I'm most afraid of) and then Philosophy, Cal, Chem and Bio, one a day from the 8th to the 14th (excluding the weekend)
I wrote the Canadian Open Mathematics competition last week and I think I did pretty well... I'm hoping that will help me get into Waterloo. The waterloo math competition and their computing competition take place sometime next semester.
Time for a story, children ;)
The Origin of Rabbits
Once upon a time, there was a young man and a young woman. They were in love, but they lived far apart, so they used the Internet for their relationship. Often, they would have sex over the internet, because both of them were very horney. One day, the woman got pregnant after one such romantic interlude but instead of taking 9 months, the pregnancy took only 9 hours. 9 hours later, she gave birth to 16 tiny children, who were all fuzzy (A result of too much furry porno on the man's part). These 16 children immediately started interbreeding and 9 days (or 27 generations later) the house was overflowed with these small fuzzy creatures. To get rid of them, the woman shoved them all out of the house. Finally the house was empty. Out in the wild, the creatures fucked like crazy, having so much sex that eventually they became immune to it's pleasure. They had so many kids that it was insane, there were just too many. One person one day noticed that they fucked so often they were the epitome of the ancient expression "to fuck like rabbits" meaning quite often. Thus they were named rabbits. Finally the woman got so fed up that she went and got all the rabbits neutered. After a while, all the rabbits died out, so the man and the woman (now together) decided to create a monument to the fuzzy white creatures. They had a giant fuzzy rabbit shaped plush toy created and they used it as a bed and lived happily ever after. (the giant fuzzy rabbit even had chains in the perfect places too!) The end.
Okay, I'm crazy and in a bad mood, I'll admit it (and by bad, I mean naughty) so I'll leave everyone alone and just go fuck with my settings on this blog.
LAter all!
Friday, November 26, 2004
Another new template
What do you guys think of this one? If you still don't like it, feel free to say so and maybe offer a suggestion? If so, I'll probably end up just taking this one and redoing all the colors and such, it's just so complicated to change all of it. Either that, or I'll go straight to just making my own page.
Andy, my best to you and I hope things are, if not perfect, at least going along for you. I'd love an e-mail from you when you find out what's going on.
Party is tomorrow, lots of stuff here for that, even though it's just 2-3 people. (4 including me). Quite possibly as little as one, but... bah, hopefully not.
Tonight I'm cleaning my room, then getting started on Andy's x-mas present, which I'll hopefully be able to give her (two days late) in person. It's a surprise, but I'll probably work on it in the TV room over the next week. Need to go out to a store in Rideau sometime and get some stuff for that.
I'm going to try very very hard to go to all the classes next week and see what's going on with everything. Biology and Philosophy especially, I feel like I've been neglecting Philosophy (just one class is so late I'm exhausted and the other is so early I'm exhausted).
Oh Andy, speaking of presents, I think we're a little bit late to start Freya's. If you think we can still make it on time, then feel free to send me your stuff, but probably we should just leave it until her b-day and get her something nice on our own for x-mas. (and if you've forgotten completely what we were going to get her, I'll tell you later) and :P to Freya!
so exams begin not next week but the middle of the week after and I need a serious study session in... well all my subjects, so much of next weekend will be full of review, as will the study break (the 7th) and then the 8th I start in on the exams, doing three in a row, then another weekend (again, full of studying) and then two more exams then I'm done. (done done, and not a moment too soon)
Anyways, I'll tty'all later, off to find some food and a good book for the rest of the night, cleaning can wait til tomorrow.
later!
Andy, my best to you and I hope things are, if not perfect, at least going along for you. I'd love an e-mail from you when you find out what's going on.
Party is tomorrow, lots of stuff here for that, even though it's just 2-3 people. (4 including me). Quite possibly as little as one, but... bah, hopefully not.
Tonight I'm cleaning my room, then getting started on Andy's x-mas present, which I'll hopefully be able to give her (two days late) in person. It's a surprise, but I'll probably work on it in the TV room over the next week. Need to go out to a store in Rideau sometime and get some stuff for that.
I'm going to try very very hard to go to all the classes next week and see what's going on with everything. Biology and Philosophy especially, I feel like I've been neglecting Philosophy (just one class is so late I'm exhausted and the other is so early I'm exhausted).
Oh Andy, speaking of presents, I think we're a little bit late to start Freya's. If you think we can still make it on time, then feel free to send me your stuff, but probably we should just leave it until her b-day and get her something nice on our own for x-mas. (and if you've forgotten completely what we were going to get her, I'll tell you later) and :P to Freya!
so exams begin not next week but the middle of the week after and I need a serious study session in... well all my subjects, so much of next weekend will be full of review, as will the study break (the 7th) and then the 8th I start in on the exams, doing three in a row, then another weekend (again, full of studying) and then two more exams then I'm done. (done done, and not a moment too soon)
Anyways, I'll tty'all later, off to find some food and a good book for the rest of the night, cleaning can wait til tomorrow.
later!
Thursday, November 25, 2004
just a tiny update
I posted a quick rough off the top of my head poem to reassure someone and I posted a long rant in my private blog.
Later all
*hugs to my love*
Later all
*hugs to my love*
Yep, I'm still here
So... updates, yes updates.
Andy had to cancel her plans to come here. *Gives Daren 12 cents* But, it's okay, I understand her reason. So it looks like the party will be at most four people (maybe), including me.
Andy and I are now seriously looking at me going up to visit her over x-mas break, specifically around the 27th of December. I have minor hopes that I can stay with Freya, as I'd really like to stay for a while, but with the conditions of things up there, that probably isn't the best of ideas. So the main constraint on how long I can stay is therefore based on how much money I can get together between now and then. I'm planning on staying at least a few days, to make it worth the $200 in bus fare and I'd really like to stay a week and a bit but I don't know if I'll have money for that. *does math* that would be... $480 in hotel alone. Freaking expensive. I may look and see if they have a hostel up there, maybe go to the one in Ottawa and ask them if they do.
I'm sick. Sore throat, stuffy nose, fever and minor headache.
Thinking about moving my b-day party but honestly probably not going to. I doubt Andy could come anyways, I'll probably feel better by the weekend and it's very hard to find a weekend for the party after this one, with exams and all.
Applying for a job soon, as I need the money. Already applied at several places, but I'm at the point I'm going to go to McDonalds, Trivium and the Dollar Store and apply to work there.
How long I spend in Timmins also depends on my job.
anyways... so party is indeed on for this weekend.
*hugs to Andy*
tty'all later.
Dep
PS: How you guys like the new layout?
Andy had to cancel her plans to come here. *Gives Daren 12 cents* But, it's okay, I understand her reason. So it looks like the party will be at most four people (maybe), including me.
Andy and I are now seriously looking at me going up to visit her over x-mas break, specifically around the 27th of December. I have minor hopes that I can stay with Freya, as I'd really like to stay for a while, but with the conditions of things up there, that probably isn't the best of ideas. So the main constraint on how long I can stay is therefore based on how much money I can get together between now and then. I'm planning on staying at least a few days, to make it worth the $200 in bus fare and I'd really like to stay a week and a bit but I don't know if I'll have money for that. *does math* that would be... $480 in hotel alone. Freaking expensive. I may look and see if they have a hostel up there, maybe go to the one in Ottawa and ask them if they do.
I'm sick. Sore throat, stuffy nose, fever and minor headache.
Thinking about moving my b-day party but honestly probably not going to. I doubt Andy could come anyways, I'll probably feel better by the weekend and it's very hard to find a weekend for the party after this one, with exams and all.
Applying for a job soon, as I need the money. Already applied at several places, but I'm at the point I'm going to go to McDonalds, Trivium and the Dollar Store and apply to work there.
How long I spend in Timmins also depends on my job.
anyways... so party is indeed on for this weekend.
*hugs to Andy*
tty'all later.
Dep
PS: How you guys like the new layout?
Sunday, November 21, 2004
A friend of mine
I want to take a moment (a rather long moment) to talk about a person who is arguably one of the more important people in my life and whom I don't get to talk to very often as of late and so I'd like to take this moment to thank her and just to talk a little bit about her.
Daren and I met, as most of you know, at Philemon in grade 10 (fall of '02). Not knowing many people we became friends in history, french, math and compsci class, as we shared common views on a lot of the world. Daren's never had a very stable net nickname, so we just call him Dragon. He's been other things in the past, DDM being the most famous. But Dragon he is now and will remain so. When we met, I was a very down person. I didn't have many friends (my best was Steve and we all know how great friends him and I are *sarcasm*) and generally led a very lonely life. I was also completely obsessed over a girl called Bryna, which I think I've written about before. I'd just started seriously writing poetry, even though it was crap, but I had a few supporters who were impressed with, as they called it, the depth of feeling behind what I wrote. I'd also just met Vicki again, after not talking to her for three years... christ it was a crazy time in my life. One day though, Daren finally introduced me to his girlfriend, who's net-name was Freya. Daren wouldn't tell me her real name (the evil evil person) so I called her Freya for the longest time until I finally learned her name was Nicky. Nicky I suppose was the first person ever to tell me I had potential and to encourage me. She helped me when I was down and she told me nice things about me that no one else, except Andarta, has told me, ever even until this day. I remember a lot of crying on her shoulder and bitching to her and complaining and going on and on about the stupidest things to her. She knows everything about me, my darkest secrets and she's helped me learn to live with the things I've done and move on to be a new person. Most importantly though, she believed in me. Having someone believe in you can do wonders. She also helped me to love myself. Before her, I saw the fact that I cared so much about some people as a weakness, it was a source of pain and therefore something I wished to be gone. I thought absolutely shit all of myself, and I couldn't believe anyone could even want to talk to me. I'm sure a lot of you have been where I've been and know exactly what I'm talking about. But just having Nicky there, believing in me and telling me that I can do it and yes I'm worth something and anyone who doesn't think I'm worth anything is a moron really helped. She's been the biggest influence in my life and, thanks to her, I'm mostly a happy, social person today. Sure I have down moods and I can be paranoid but compared to how I was two years ago, it is a vast improvement. And most of it is thanks to Freya. Needless to say she's a very important person to me, one of my closest and dear friends and I am very very thankful that I've met her because I'd hate to imagine where I'd be today if I hadn't.
*shocked* it really has been two years since all of this happened. High school just flew by. I'll get to that later.
I remember when her and Angelis got together again, last September (03). She waited seven years for him, oh she dated on and off but nothing as serious as she was about him. Grade school sweethearts you might say. And she was so happy when they started dating, it was just awesome. She was so happy and... it was just awesome. I started my journal a few weeks afterwards, to replace my website which was fucked up.
But the best thing she's ever done for me... well let me tell you the story.
May, 2004.
One of the worst and best months of my life. The beginning of the month: I'd been rejected by Vicki and was taking it really hard, I was latching on to every woman in sight and then Daren gave me a royal bitch slapping and shook some sense into me. I saw that I was just desperately grasping onto straws and vowed to stop. The upside to the month is that it was Nicky's birthday, she was having a party in Timmins and I'd talked my parents into driving me up there for the party and then to the science centre the next day. At the party, I met a beautiful girl, not much older than I was who was intelligent (she was going to university), loved most of the songs I did (our favorite memory from that night: singing American Pie together), and she liked my poetry. But not only that, things for us just seemed to click together and we soon found ourselves holding hands and then making out before I had to leave. But before I left, I had the prescence of mind to obtain her e-mail address. Her name was of course, Courtney, whose net name is Andarta which has now been shortned to Andy. Most of you today know where our relationship has gone and where I hope it will go. If you don't, grow some eyes or get your fingers out of your ears. But I learned a few days after getting back that Freya had purposefully introduced us at that party in hopes that we would get together and that she did this because she believed we'd be a good couple. Turns out she was right and she's introduced me to the most wonderful person in my life and for this I must thank her a billion times and it's still not enough. THANK YOU FREYA! WE LOVE YOU!
Freya and Angelis's one year anniversary was this September. He gave her, at around that time (don't remember exactly when, though it's in her journal) a promise ring. She called me almost immediately, all hyper and excited and wanted me to tell everyone. I posted about it here, all hyper as well.
I suppose I wanted to say the following then.
Freya, I want to thank you for all that you've done for me. You've made my life a very happy one, both in helping me love myself and in introducing me to Andy. I consider you one of my best friends and I always want you to be in my life some way. The last six months have been hard without being able to talk to you often, but I've managed. I miss you and I know Raven does as well. *hugs* we love you Freya. Always remember that and that we'll be here for you if you ever need us.
I know Andy was saying the same thing yesterday about you, how much of a change she's noticed thanks to you Freya. And I know we both miss you and wish you could spend a lot more time on-line.
To Freya. May you live a long productive life.
Into other news.
Andy and I are now looking at three options for next year. The first is the already overly discussed option of me going to U of Waterloo. The second is her coming to U of Ottawa and I'll do my DEC then attend U of Ottawa. The third is her coming to U of Ottawa for a year while I finish my DEC and then she goes back to U of Guelph and I go to U of Waterloo. Of these options, I think I like the third one the best, but honestly she should pick whichever makes her happier and we can go with that. I don't mind not doing my DEC, it just might help things along in the future.
There are less than six days until my birthday party and until I get to meet Andy again. I can't wait, I'm so excited and hyper, especially here at home on the weekends with not much to do sometimes. At school during the week, the days can just fly by.
With recent events what they are, I am most definately planning a trip to Timmins this winter. My parents have offered to pay for a trip to Timmins or Guelph and I think that this one would be very appreciated by Freya, who has not talked to me much since May, as she's been without internet for the most part not to mention really busy with school. The details are still up in the air, but it looks like the trip will be sometime after Christmas but before I have to go back to school on January 17th.
For those of you interested in buying me birthday presents, I have created a Christmas/Birthday Wish List. If you're stuck on what to get me, this list is stuff I'd love to get.
A friend of mine at Heritage is pregnant, with the baby expected in late March, early April. Originally he or she was expected in May, but that was before the ultrasound. Good thing too... there are way too many birthdays in may already. (Andy's, Freya's, Scorpie's and someone elses whose I keep forgetting, but it's like the 1st of May). Her and her boyfriend aren't getting married for tuition reasons, so the baby will be a bastard but *shrugs* doesn't bother me any.
That's about all the important news I can think of to report. Farethee well all
*hugs to Andy*
Daren and I met, as most of you know, at Philemon in grade 10 (fall of '02). Not knowing many people we became friends in history, french, math and compsci class, as we shared common views on a lot of the world. Daren's never had a very stable net nickname, so we just call him Dragon. He's been other things in the past, DDM being the most famous. But Dragon he is now and will remain so. When we met, I was a very down person. I didn't have many friends (my best was Steve and we all know how great friends him and I are *sarcasm*) and generally led a very lonely life. I was also completely obsessed over a girl called Bryna, which I think I've written about before. I'd just started seriously writing poetry, even though it was crap, but I had a few supporters who were impressed with, as they called it, the depth of feeling behind what I wrote. I'd also just met Vicki again, after not talking to her for three years... christ it was a crazy time in my life. One day though, Daren finally introduced me to his girlfriend, who's net-name was Freya. Daren wouldn't tell me her real name (the evil evil person) so I called her Freya for the longest time until I finally learned her name was Nicky. Nicky I suppose was the first person ever to tell me I had potential and to encourage me. She helped me when I was down and she told me nice things about me that no one else, except Andarta, has told me, ever even until this day. I remember a lot of crying on her shoulder and bitching to her and complaining and going on and on about the stupidest things to her. She knows everything about me, my darkest secrets and she's helped me learn to live with the things I've done and move on to be a new person. Most importantly though, she believed in me. Having someone believe in you can do wonders. She also helped me to love myself. Before her, I saw the fact that I cared so much about some people as a weakness, it was a source of pain and therefore something I wished to be gone. I thought absolutely shit all of myself, and I couldn't believe anyone could even want to talk to me. I'm sure a lot of you have been where I've been and know exactly what I'm talking about. But just having Nicky there, believing in me and telling me that I can do it and yes I'm worth something and anyone who doesn't think I'm worth anything is a moron really helped. She's been the biggest influence in my life and, thanks to her, I'm mostly a happy, social person today. Sure I have down moods and I can be paranoid but compared to how I was two years ago, it is a vast improvement. And most of it is thanks to Freya. Needless to say she's a very important person to me, one of my closest and dear friends and I am very very thankful that I've met her because I'd hate to imagine where I'd be today if I hadn't.
*shocked* it really has been two years since all of this happened. High school just flew by. I'll get to that later.
I remember when her and Angelis got together again, last September (03). She waited seven years for him, oh she dated on and off but nothing as serious as she was about him. Grade school sweethearts you might say. And she was so happy when they started dating, it was just awesome. She was so happy and... it was just awesome. I started my journal a few weeks afterwards, to replace my website which was fucked up.
But the best thing she's ever done for me... well let me tell you the story.
May, 2004.
One of the worst and best months of my life. The beginning of the month: I'd been rejected by Vicki and was taking it really hard, I was latching on to every woman in sight and then Daren gave me a royal bitch slapping and shook some sense into me. I saw that I was just desperately grasping onto straws and vowed to stop. The upside to the month is that it was Nicky's birthday, she was having a party in Timmins and I'd talked my parents into driving me up there for the party and then to the science centre the next day. At the party, I met a beautiful girl, not much older than I was who was intelligent (she was going to university), loved most of the songs I did (our favorite memory from that night: singing American Pie together), and she liked my poetry. But not only that, things for us just seemed to click together and we soon found ourselves holding hands and then making out before I had to leave. But before I left, I had the prescence of mind to obtain her e-mail address. Her name was of course, Courtney, whose net name is Andarta which has now been shortned to Andy. Most of you today know where our relationship has gone and where I hope it will go. If you don't, grow some eyes or get your fingers out of your ears. But I learned a few days after getting back that Freya had purposefully introduced us at that party in hopes that we would get together and that she did this because she believed we'd be a good couple. Turns out she was right and she's introduced me to the most wonderful person in my life and for this I must thank her a billion times and it's still not enough. THANK YOU FREYA! WE LOVE YOU!
Freya and Angelis's one year anniversary was this September. He gave her, at around that time (don't remember exactly when, though it's in her journal) a promise ring. She called me almost immediately, all hyper and excited and wanted me to tell everyone. I posted about it here, all hyper as well.
I suppose I wanted to say the following then.
Freya, I want to thank you for all that you've done for me. You've made my life a very happy one, both in helping me love myself and in introducing me to Andy. I consider you one of my best friends and I always want you to be in my life some way. The last six months have been hard without being able to talk to you often, but I've managed. I miss you and I know Raven does as well. *hugs* we love you Freya. Always remember that and that we'll be here for you if you ever need us.
I know Andy was saying the same thing yesterday about you, how much of a change she's noticed thanks to you Freya. And I know we both miss you and wish you could spend a lot more time on-line.
To Freya. May you live a long productive life.
Into other news.
Andy and I are now looking at three options for next year. The first is the already overly discussed option of me going to U of Waterloo. The second is her coming to U of Ottawa and I'll do my DEC then attend U of Ottawa. The third is her coming to U of Ottawa for a year while I finish my DEC and then she goes back to U of Guelph and I go to U of Waterloo. Of these options, I think I like the third one the best, but honestly she should pick whichever makes her happier and we can go with that. I don't mind not doing my DEC, it just might help things along in the future.
There are less than six days until my birthday party and until I get to meet Andy again. I can't wait, I'm so excited and hyper, especially here at home on the weekends with not much to do sometimes. At school during the week, the days can just fly by.
With recent events what they are, I am most definately planning a trip to Timmins this winter. My parents have offered to pay for a trip to Timmins or Guelph and I think that this one would be very appreciated by Freya, who has not talked to me much since May, as she's been without internet for the most part not to mention really busy with school. The details are still up in the air, but it looks like the trip will be sometime after Christmas but before I have to go back to school on January 17th.
For those of you interested in buying me birthday presents, I have created a Christmas/Birthday Wish List. If you're stuck on what to get me, this list is stuff I'd love to get.
A friend of mine at Heritage is pregnant, with the baby expected in late March, early April. Originally he or she was expected in May, but that was before the ultrasound. Good thing too... there are way too many birthdays in may already. (Andy's, Freya's, Scorpie's and someone elses whose I keep forgetting, but it's like the 1st of May). Her and her boyfriend aren't getting married for tuition reasons, so the baby will be a bastard but *shrugs* doesn't bother me any.
That's about all the important news I can think of to report. Farethee well all
*hugs to Andy*
Friday, November 19, 2004
AHA ANOTHER FLIP
Well I've deleted a post as I've reconsidered a lot of things and figured out the following.
1) Love is the most important thing to me
2) Some people are worth waiting for
3) Emotion > logic
So the path I'd almost started down has been reversed. I have my reasons which I'll write about later, but just wanted to reassure everyone.
Later all.
*hugs to Andarta*
1) Love is the most important thing to me
2) Some people are worth waiting for
3) Emotion > logic
So the path I'd almost started down has been reversed. I have my reasons which I'll write about later, but just wanted to reassure everyone.
Later all.
*hugs to Andarta*
Thursday, November 18, 2004
hey!
It's been another little bit and again I apologize. Things at school have been hectic and I'm finally almost caught up, with just one lab left to hand in, which I'll do this weekend.
On the plus side: All English work for the semester is completed, so I just have the final exam to worry about.
Things are going well here. I'm thinking a lot about what I'm doing next year for school, at the moment I'm still planning to go to Waterloo though. I don't think getting my DEC would help me that much.
I've posted a poem by the way. I know it's been awhile, but inspiration is sometimes hard to come by and I try not to force it. But today, I heard the song Iris for the first time in a few weeks and I just.. .wrote! So the result's in the usual place and I know the song is part of the poem... it's supposed to be that way.
Here's the song by the way!
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you'd feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Nor the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
(interlude)
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
- Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)
Beautiful song *wipes tear from eye*
Anyways, just thought I'd let everyone know I'm still alive. Will post more later.
On the plus side: All English work for the semester is completed, so I just have the final exam to worry about.
Things are going well here. I'm thinking a lot about what I'm doing next year for school, at the moment I'm still planning to go to Waterloo though. I don't think getting my DEC would help me that much.
I've posted a poem by the way. I know it's been awhile, but inspiration is sometimes hard to come by and I try not to force it. But today, I heard the song Iris for the first time in a few weeks and I just.. .wrote! So the result's in the usual place and I know the song is part of the poem... it's supposed to be that way.
Here's the song by the way!
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you'd feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Nor the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
(interlude)
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
- Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)
Beautiful song *wipes tear from eye*
Anyways, just thought I'd let everyone know I'm still alive. Will post more later.
Monday, November 15, 2004
anxiously waiting?
YEah... I know I owe you another chapter of Dawn!
Problem is I've gotten so busy lately there just hasn't been time to write. And when I do want to write, I'm always down 'cause of something at school that's bugging me (pink elephant, clingy, what ever you want to call it). But I'm trying not to let that bug me. You might get lucky and I'll write the second chapter after Courtney's visit (to base it on actual fact?) or if you're really lucky, I'll write it sometime during the exams.
*just wishes people wouldn't be such asses some of the time*
anyways, I have a lab and a presentation tomorrow that I haven't worked on at all. I wil lbe going to sleep now after grabbing a glass of water and doing most of the work tomorrow at school.
Courtney, best of luck with those essays and such.
oh BTW, it is almost certain that I'm going to waterloo now. I talked with a waterloo math faculty student and we talked about entrance marks and she said I should have no problems getting in to co-op. (I'm most likely doing co-op and probably taking the work terms in either Ottawa/Hull (to be w/family) or in Timmins (if Andarta's there).) so... 9 more months. Actually, if you want to the day... 292 days until frosh week.
And at the moment it looks like Andarta and I might be getting together sometime over x-mas break, though I don't want to say anything's for sure because a) it's not and b) if I did, it wouldn't work. Therefore the only time I will say it's sure is when I have the ticket in my hand or when she tells me she has the ticket in her hand.
alright... sleep.
*hugs & snugs to Andarta*
'night all.
Signing off...
Dep
Problem is I've gotten so busy lately there just hasn't been time to write. And when I do want to write, I'm always down 'cause of something at school that's bugging me (pink elephant, clingy, what ever you want to call it). But I'm trying not to let that bug me. You might get lucky and I'll write the second chapter after Courtney's visit (to base it on actual fact?) or if you're really lucky, I'll write it sometime during the exams.
*just wishes people wouldn't be such asses some of the time*
anyways, I have a lab and a presentation tomorrow that I haven't worked on at all. I wil lbe going to sleep now after grabbing a glass of water and doing most of the work tomorrow at school.
Courtney, best of luck with those essays and such.
oh BTW, it is almost certain that I'm going to waterloo now. I talked with a waterloo math faculty student and we talked about entrance marks and she said I should have no problems getting in to co-op. (I'm most likely doing co-op and probably taking the work terms in either Ottawa/Hull (to be w/family) or in Timmins (if Andarta's there).) so... 9 more months. Actually, if you want to the day... 292 days until frosh week.
And at the moment it looks like Andarta and I might be getting together sometime over x-mas break, though I don't want to say anything's for sure because a) it's not and b) if I did, it wouldn't work. Therefore the only time I will say it's sure is when I have the ticket in my hand or when she tells me she has the ticket in her hand.
alright... sleep.
*hugs & snugs to Andarta*
'night all.
Signing off...
Dep
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
The 287th Blogger Entry
287... hehe. big number.
Alright, so today I saw a pun that was soooo bad I just have to repeat it (it's on squidi, so you know it's good)
the joke goes like this
A neutron walks into a bar and says "How much is it for a beer."
The bartender looks and says "For you, no charge."
If you don't get it, meh. Learn what a neutron is, come back, read it again and you better laugh this time.
So... *debates writing a random story today*
Nah... don't have one in me at the moment.
Plans for tonight: Chemistry labs! (due today!)
Plans for tomorrow: English essays for the most part plus a bit of Biology studying.
Plans for friday: Biology studying.
Plans for saturday: Jaz's b-day party (I hope)
plans for sunday: who cares.
So yeah, busy busy busy here with school work. I have a huge backlog of it to do, hopefully I can get most of it done and have the weekend off, nothing late to hand in Monday (though the essays can be, as a last resort... at minus 15%!)
Alright, must get started on chem work.
*hugs to Andarta*
later all.
Alright, so today I saw a pun that was soooo bad I just have to repeat it (it's on squidi, so you know it's good)
the joke goes like this
A neutron walks into a bar and says "How much is it for a beer."
The bartender looks and says "For you, no charge."
If you don't get it, meh. Learn what a neutron is, come back, read it again and you better laugh this time.
So... *debates writing a random story today*
Nah... don't have one in me at the moment.
Plans for tonight: Chemistry labs! (due today!)
Plans for tomorrow: English essays for the most part plus a bit of Biology studying.
Plans for friday: Biology studying.
Plans for saturday: Jaz's b-day party (I hope)
plans for sunday: who cares.
So yeah, busy busy busy here with school work. I have a huge backlog of it to do, hopefully I can get most of it done and have the weekend off, nothing late to hand in Monday (though the essays can be, as a last resort... at minus 15%!)
Alright, must get started on chem work.
*hugs to Andarta*
later all.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
briefly
Not much I can say except: poem up, going to school tomorrow, best wishes to courtney tomorrow, i know everything's going to be fine, going to sleep now, 'night all.
*hugs to courtney*
later
*hugs to courtney*
later
Friday, November 05, 2004
an update!
alright, after I finish this update, I'm going to go work on the template as I HATE THIS TEMPLATE!
Comments on the new template (with mods) are welcome after I finish it (sometime in the wee hours of the morning).
So today was a really dull day. It was my day off of school and I spent it playing PS2 for the most part, though I came on-line occasionally.
Yesterday was a fairly good day. We watched Shrek 2 at school, awesome movie and my parents finally bought Pirates of the Carribean so I watched that when I got home.
This weekend looks to be a fairly busy one. I have complied a list of many things I must do.
1) I absolutely must finish my two english essays by Thursday next week. I need a 75% or more on them to have a hope of passing english this semester.
2) I need to go out, buy and then read w/attention to detail "The Virgin and the Gypsy" sometime this weekend, as I have a test on it Tuesday.
3) I need someone, anyone to e-mail me the article that we're supposed to abstract (summerize) for Chemistry by monday.
4) I need to print out and do the biology assignment
5) I need to do the chemistry laboratory
So yes... large piles of work heaping up for this weekend. On top of this add having to clean my room (it needs it... badly) and do piles of laundry.
good thing I don't have much of a social life eh?
So... social life, what's been going on.
Last week has had it's ups and it's downs but after the week is out, I feel pretty good. Life's still going in an excellent direction pour moi, and I feel good.
Recent Movies I have Seen: Shrek 2, the new Bugs Bunny movie, Resident Evil
Movies I Still Have To See: Dawn of the Dead
Much good music going on here. Current Playlist:
We Didn't Start The Fire (Billy Joel)
Where Ever You Will Go (The Calling)
I'll Be (Edwin McCain)
Iris (The Goo Goo Dolls)
The Reason (Hoobastank) (yes Rhonda I know you hate them)
She Will Be Loved (Maroon 5)
When You're Gone (Matchbox 20)
Unwell (Matchbox 20)
Hot Summer Night (Meatloaf)
Come What May (Moulin Rouge)
All You Need Is Love (Moulin Rouge)
Can't Hurry Love (Phil Collins)
Be As (Prozzak)
Where My Heart Will Take Me (Russell Watson)
Hundreth Meridian (The Tragically Hip)
yep... definatly a sappy playlist. If it wasn't 11:30 at night I might go downstairs and watch Moulin Rouge... I'm certainly in the mood for it.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
- I'll Be (Edwin McCain)
So maybe pi is deserved is it not?
Or barring pi, a random story!
Gather around kids it's story time
Once upon a time in a land far far away, or rather right next door, there lay a beautiful maiden who's name doesn't really matter but we'll call her Bob for the purpose of this story... or wait a moment. That's not quite right. Let me go check the book, kids. No, sorry, her name was Jill. And there was a magic bean stalk... no wait that's the other story isn't it. Let me think... now how did this one go...
There once was a man named Bill. Bill was from the town of Clinton, which is somewhere in Alabama, so we all know what went on there, it's very much like buckingham (no offense scrabble) and this might explain a few things about Bill. Bill was a very loose man, his pants hung around his ankles he was so loose and he drove all the women insane with his pointed, thrusting comments. He lived in a white house and it had pictures of very very old, very very famous, very very prestigeous and very very dead people all around the house. Lots of people thought ole Bill was a nutter, but he was a pretty decent guy, when not around women. But most people didn't like him, so after living only eight years in his white house, they kicked him out and no one shed a tear. Then, two guys one named George and the other named Al fought over his house. It was a very nice house and rumour had it there was an evil monkey hand in the basement that let you control the world. You'd always recognize George as he was a rather bushy person... in fact people suspected his mother was a squirrel, he was so bushy. And Al had a habit of being very gory in his battles... not to be confused with glory, of which he had none. So the two of them duked it out, with the judge being some nice guy whose name I forget from Florida. He sat on a tall tall fence between the two, watching them shout and tried to decide who would be better in that house with that evil monkey hand just lying around. Finally someone knocked him off the fence after a month with a large stone chucked by a giant and he fell down on the side of George. George leapt for joy and ran straight away into that house to search for the evil monkey paw. He searched and he searched and he searched, but to no avail. Finally the spirit of Bill appeared to him and pointed him in the direction of the monkey paw, which George found very odd as Bill had no hands to point with. Obviously the hand were very busy at the moment, he supposed. With the evil monkey paw in his control, he set out to dominate the world. He paid a guy named Oscar (or something like that... might have been an "m" in there or something) to attack his house, but Oscar missed and hit the guy next door,who lived in a pentagon, and the guy on the other next door, who lived in the tallest house in the world. It was so tall that the man who lived there had his own elevator and he didn't need to pray to talk to God. This tall tall house burnt down and George and his neighbour were very upset. The guy who lived next door, with his husband, were also quite upset, but George paid no attention to him, after all he wasn't important was he? George went off with the evil monkey paw to dominate the world, starting with this Oscar fellow. Soon it moved over to a poor insane fellow who's only crime was releasing deadly nerve toxins on his own people and being a general poo-poo head in general and eventually George captured this man and put him in a jail somewhere where no one knows what happnes to him (rumour has it, he locked him up with his neighbour and his husband, figuring they'd have fun together. anyone say menage a trois? After all, all gay people are associated with the devil). But then, a new guy came on the scene named John, who was a very karing person. His middle named was Finch, so everyone knew he was a gonner the moment they spelt his entire name out. The people wanted to kick George out of his white house, but he wanted to stay in, so he fought with John for the right to keep the house. Again, they battled in the same field where Al and George had fought years before, but this time the judge was from Ohio, not Florida. And again, someone knocked the judge off of his seat and again fell on the side of... you guessed it George! George ran into the house to reclaim his monkey paw and was about to restart his plans to dominate the world when he choaked on a toothpick and died. His last words were "Kill the rainbow people!" Most people thought he was insane and said "Good riddence". The few who knew about the rainbow people spit on his corpse adnd then said "Good Riddence". And John ruled with an iron temperate monkey fist for the next eight years when he was then replaced by Hillary, who happened to be Bill's daughter and in his mannerisms and habits, was his exact twin. And then, as prophised, as soon as Hillary picked up the evil monkey hand, the world came to an end.
The End.
Alright, alright I'm sorry... I've written a monster haven't I. I'd liked to apologize to the following people.
All americans. I'm sorry most of you are such idiots that I have to mock you.
George W. Bush, for being such a moron with his anti-rainbow people, pro-christian fundamentalist policies. But I do love his socialist policies
John Kerry and Al Gore, for being subjects of my monster of a story
Bill Clinton and his daughter Hillary Clinton, for being such EASY TARGETS!
All the rainbow people who were offended by my story
All the people from buckingham and alabama who were offended by my story. (you know it's true)
Osama bin Laden, for corrupting his name (may you rot in hell)
Saddam Huissen, for making gay jokes about him
To the creators of South Park for blantently ripping off from their awesome show
All the supporters of Bush, Kerry, Gore, Clinton (daughter and father), Saddam, South Park and Osama bin Laden who were deeply offended. (If you were lightly offended, either learn to read or reconsider your support.)
All people who live in the fence-sitting, can't count states of Ohio and Florida.
alright, I think I've tortured everyone. Next up on my writing: A (serious) discussion of politics in my private blog.
Later all.
Comments on the new template (with mods) are welcome after I finish it (sometime in the wee hours of the morning).
So today was a really dull day. It was my day off of school and I spent it playing PS2 for the most part, though I came on-line occasionally.
Yesterday was a fairly good day. We watched Shrek 2 at school, awesome movie and my parents finally bought Pirates of the Carribean so I watched that when I got home.
This weekend looks to be a fairly busy one. I have complied a list of many things I must do.
1) I absolutely must finish my two english essays by Thursday next week. I need a 75% or more on them to have a hope of passing english this semester.
2) I need to go out, buy and then read w/attention to detail "The Virgin and the Gypsy" sometime this weekend, as I have a test on it Tuesday.
3) I need someone, anyone to e-mail me the article that we're supposed to abstract (summerize) for Chemistry by monday.
4) I need to print out and do the biology assignment
5) I need to do the chemistry laboratory
So yes... large piles of work heaping up for this weekend. On top of this add having to clean my room (it needs it... badly) and do piles of laundry.
good thing I don't have much of a social life eh?
So... social life, what's been going on.
Last week has had it's ups and it's downs but after the week is out, I feel pretty good. Life's still going in an excellent direction pour moi, and I feel good.
Recent Movies I have Seen: Shrek 2, the new Bugs Bunny movie, Resident Evil
Movies I Still Have To See: Dawn of the Dead
Much good music going on here. Current Playlist:
We Didn't Start The Fire (Billy Joel)
Where Ever You Will Go (The Calling)
I'll Be (Edwin McCain)
Iris (The Goo Goo Dolls)
The Reason (Hoobastank) (yes Rhonda I know you hate them)
She Will Be Loved (Maroon 5)
When You're Gone (Matchbox 20)
Unwell (Matchbox 20)
Hot Summer Night (Meatloaf)
Come What May (Moulin Rouge)
All You Need Is Love (Moulin Rouge)
Can't Hurry Love (Phil Collins)
Be As (Prozzak)
Where My Heart Will Take Me (Russell Watson)
Hundreth Meridian (The Tragically Hip)
yep... definatly a sappy playlist. If it wasn't 11:30 at night I might go downstairs and watch Moulin Rouge... I'm certainly in the mood for it.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
- I'll Be (Edwin McCain)
So maybe pi is deserved is it not?
Or barring pi, a random story!
Gather around kids it's story time
Once upon a time in a land far far away, or rather right next door, there lay a beautiful maiden who's name doesn't really matter but we'll call her Bob for the purpose of this story... or wait a moment. That's not quite right. Let me go check the book, kids. No, sorry, her name was Jill. And there was a magic bean stalk... no wait that's the other story isn't it. Let me think... now how did this one go...
There once was a man named Bill. Bill was from the town of Clinton, which is somewhere in Alabama, so we all know what went on there, it's very much like buckingham (no offense scrabble) and this might explain a few things about Bill. Bill was a very loose man, his pants hung around his ankles he was so loose and he drove all the women insane with his pointed, thrusting comments. He lived in a white house and it had pictures of very very old, very very famous, very very prestigeous and very very dead people all around the house. Lots of people thought ole Bill was a nutter, but he was a pretty decent guy, when not around women. But most people didn't like him, so after living only eight years in his white house, they kicked him out and no one shed a tear. Then, two guys one named George and the other named Al fought over his house. It was a very nice house and rumour had it there was an evil monkey hand in the basement that let you control the world. You'd always recognize George as he was a rather bushy person... in fact people suspected his mother was a squirrel, he was so bushy. And Al had a habit of being very gory in his battles... not to be confused with glory, of which he had none. So the two of them duked it out, with the judge being some nice guy whose name I forget from Florida. He sat on a tall tall fence between the two, watching them shout and tried to decide who would be better in that house with that evil monkey hand just lying around. Finally someone knocked him off the fence after a month with a large stone chucked by a giant and he fell down on the side of George. George leapt for joy and ran straight away into that house to search for the evil monkey paw. He searched and he searched and he searched, but to no avail. Finally the spirit of Bill appeared to him and pointed him in the direction of the monkey paw, which George found very odd as Bill had no hands to point with. Obviously the hand were very busy at the moment, he supposed. With the evil monkey paw in his control, he set out to dominate the world. He paid a guy named Oscar (or something like that... might have been an "m" in there or something) to attack his house, but Oscar missed and hit the guy next door,who lived in a pentagon, and the guy on the other next door, who lived in the tallest house in the world. It was so tall that the man who lived there had his own elevator and he didn't need to pray to talk to God. This tall tall house burnt down and George and his neighbour were very upset. The guy who lived next door, with his husband, were also quite upset, but George paid no attention to him, after all he wasn't important was he? George went off with the evil monkey paw to dominate the world, starting with this Oscar fellow. Soon it moved over to a poor insane fellow who's only crime was releasing deadly nerve toxins on his own people and being a general poo-poo head in general and eventually George captured this man and put him in a jail somewhere where no one knows what happnes to him (rumour has it, he locked him up with his neighbour and his husband, figuring they'd have fun together. anyone say menage a trois? After all, all gay people are associated with the devil). But then, a new guy came on the scene named John, who was a very karing person. His middle named was Finch, so everyone knew he was a gonner the moment they spelt his entire name out. The people wanted to kick George out of his white house, but he wanted to stay in, so he fought with John for the right to keep the house. Again, they battled in the same field where Al and George had fought years before, but this time the judge was from Ohio, not Florida. And again, someone knocked the judge off of his seat and again fell on the side of... you guessed it George! George ran into the house to reclaim his monkey paw and was about to restart his plans to dominate the world when he choaked on a toothpick and died. His last words were "Kill the rainbow people!" Most people thought he was insane and said "Good riddence". The few who knew about the rainbow people spit on his corpse adnd then said "Good Riddence". And John ruled with an iron temperate monkey fist for the next eight years when he was then replaced by Hillary, who happened to be Bill's daughter and in his mannerisms and habits, was his exact twin. And then, as prophised, as soon as Hillary picked up the evil monkey hand, the world came to an end.
The End.
Alright, alright I'm sorry... I've written a monster haven't I. I'd liked to apologize to the following people.
All americans. I'm sorry most of you are such idiots that I have to mock you.
George W. Bush, for being such a moron with his anti-rainbow people, pro-christian fundamentalist policies. But I do love his socialist policies
John Kerry and Al Gore, for being subjects of my monster of a story
Bill Clinton and his daughter Hillary Clinton, for being such EASY TARGETS!
All the rainbow people who were offended by my story
All the people from buckingham and alabama who were offended by my story. (you know it's true)
Osama bin Laden, for corrupting his name (may you rot in hell)
Saddam Huissen, for making gay jokes about him
To the creators of South Park for blantently ripping off from their awesome show
All the supporters of Bush, Kerry, Gore, Clinton (daughter and father), Saddam, South Park and Osama bin Laden who were deeply offended. (If you were lightly offended, either learn to read or reconsider your support.)
All people who live in the fence-sitting, can't count states of Ohio and Florida.
alright, I think I've tortured everyone. Next up on my writing: A (serious) discussion of politics in my private blog.
Later all.
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Beginning of November
Welcome to November all. I've decided to start a new practice: New Month Resolutions. At the beginning of each month I'll post about the past month and what I want to work on this month.
For the last month I haven't been to many classes and I always regret it after the class. I feel good when I go to class, so I should more often. I also find I've been... very in the gutter the past month. So here are my resolutions for the new month.
1) I resolve to attend the majority of my classes with the following exceptions: 8AM Philosophy or Calculus classes; work periods in Calculus; Chemistry classes and Intro to Office classes.
2) I resolve to be less dirty minded over the next month in most situations. (will keep it for the appropriate times)
Things are going pretty good. I have a few things I wish to talk about in my private blog and I will when I'm done this. And after that, I need sleep. It's 11:30 and, although I have no class tomorrow (my cal classes were canceled) I'd still like to go in. Either that or I may take a four day weekend, sleep in and just stay home all day tomorrow.
Alright, moving over to other blog.
Later all.
For the last month I haven't been to many classes and I always regret it after the class. I feel good when I go to class, so I should more often. I also find I've been... very in the gutter the past month. So here are my resolutions for the new month.
1) I resolve to attend the majority of my classes with the following exceptions: 8AM Philosophy or Calculus classes; work periods in Calculus; Chemistry classes and Intro to Office classes.
2) I resolve to be less dirty minded over the next month in most situations. (will keep it for the appropriate times)
Things are going pretty good. I have a few things I wish to talk about in my private blog and I will when I'm done this. And after that, I need sleep. It's 11:30 and, although I have no class tomorrow (my cal classes were canceled) I'd still like to go in. Either that or I may take a four day weekend, sleep in and just stay home all day tomorrow.
Alright, moving over to other blog.
Later all.
Monday, November 01, 2004
updates
Poetry Blog: 1 Poem Added
Private Blog: 1 Entry Added
Later all, I am so off to bed.
Private Blog: 1 Entry Added
Later all, I am so off to bed.