Evil Geniuses in a Nutshell

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Yeah, I'm still alive. Bugger off.

(I think thats a big enouhg blog for now)

Oh you want more? Ha! As if anyone but scrabble reads this anymore.

Later.

been a few days, think i will.

I really don't know what's wiht me lately. I've been filling my time to the brim, packing my schedule with various activities from bowling to play rehersals to trips to other cities to concerts and field trips. I never used to be this active and yet i found I was going to have to stay after school every night this week and i wont be home till like 10 on thursday...

I don't know whats worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

felt like posting that, it's a linkin park song "Breaking the Habit".

I feel empty as of lately... like I'm just going through the motions of living. Maybe thats why I've begun to fill my life with nonsense, to try and get rid of that feeling. But at the end of the day when I'm alone on the bus coming come to home I still feel empty... like I have nothing to try at... school was never a challenge as much as I bitch about the work (I only bitch due to boredom and tedious work, not due to difficulty)... *sigh* i know where this is going.

So I won't bitch about being single. I'll shut up about it now and go on to other topics.

I'm planning on writing a story as soon as I have time and can think of a good beginning (in fact Ihave one, just need time and have to develop it more.) It is going to be an intensely personal story and I will only share it with a few people directly... Freya for sure and KoS, Scrabble, maybe Roots Kid and maybe Scorpie... possibly Dark Angel if she wants it.

Anyways, thats all for now. I promised myself not to talk about my relationships any more on here or anything related to them (or the abscence of them) so... don't expect great long posts. Later.

well i did something stupid

for this weekend, I have planned: stage crew rehersal from 10:30 to 3PM, scorekeeping from 9AM to sometime in the PM and the same on sunday, bowling on sunday, a laband some english homework. Not including my usual chatting time. I am so fucked. Oh well.

(will figure something out).

Have some stuff to talk about, but will later as I am going upstairs now as my brother wants the computre. Night.

With few exceptions, the last week has been shit. Hopefully this week will go better.

I really do not know what is with me these past few days. I just haven't felt like doing anything really... I feel tired, empty, drained. I've lost interest in a lot of the things I used to like. Even my music has changed... I found myself listening to Linkin Park on the weekend and really enjoying it.... oh well.

I'm going into Rideau today, at around noon. I'm hoping DDM will call me back by then, and he'll be able to go with me into rideau. I already called Scorpie, who claimed fatigue and didn't want to go with me. *shrugs*

I might not be posting for a while....

later.

easter break has begun. yay. lovely 5 day weekends.

today I finally finished remodeling my room. I have one shelf left to make and i'll do that tomorrow. (It looks awesome).

And I booked the hotels for my trip (you know what i'm talking about - if you dont, skip to the next paragraph lol). So excited. Hyper. Alright.

Making a new CD right now, so just thought I'd post a few comments.

Planning on going to rideau to get the last few items i need for my room (one or two Matrix posters.) Perhaps I'll ask ddm to come with me, if i see him before I go. Also planning on digging my bike out sometime this weekend.

Umm... nothing else planned really. I'll be around tomorrow hopefully. Later all.

Welcome. Today, I learned her answer to my question and the answer was unfortunatly a "Sorry but, no".

Guess I'm taking this harder than I should be... but who cares.

Everything seemed to be going so right... and suddenly it all took a turn for the worse. I was already in a depressed mood today, because I found out today that a member of our school community (somebody I didn't know and now never will) died. The whole school was immensly saddened and I, though I didn't know him, was also. Human life is precious.

Then I was really annoyed with myself for scoring under 80% on the math test. I know to most of you it doesn't seem like such a big deal but... it is to me! Math is one of my few skills and I hate to think I could be slipping. They were all such stupid mistakes, if I was only thinking clearly (Which I wasn't) I might not have made them. If only I hadn't rushed. Grrr.

Then I found out that Natalie said no. Enough said.

People started pissing me off immensely when I went to band rehersal... not certain if I did any good there but I showed up and that shuold be enough.

Forgive me if I don't have much to say. Today has not been one of the better days of my life and I would prefer to be silent about it now.

Forgive me anyone whom I have offended in any way today. I am sorry.

Good night all. I will of course be online for a while, listening to music.

Goodnight.

I may be reopening my website at a new location soon. I'm looking into getting a full account at writing.com and it comes with some web hosting, so I may move my site there. Even if I don't, a bio and a full compilation of poetry and stories will be avalible there when it is complete.

News? What news? I stayed home sick today, going in tomorrow.

38 days to go... yeah.

Oh I got accepted to CEGEP today. Have some paperwork to fill out but no biggie.

Never thought I'd meet someone (female nevertheless!!!!!) who likes star wars, sci-fi and rock&roll as much as i do. I'm amazed... but... hey... we'll see where things go. I'm probably going to ask her out for coffee on friday, but I'm going to talk with DDM before hand (And Freya if she shows up tonight.)

yeah... asides from that, not much to talk about.

Still no nickname for her... will think of one soon.

LAter all. Sorry this is so short.

Oh, new poetry up (since yesterday)

Yes, tis monday... grr...

Don't like monday's.

Today I had to go in because I had a test today (math) and I couldn't miss it. I may go in tomorrow, or I may not. Depends how tired I feel tomorrow morning.

Alright, recent events.

This weekend was my brother's b-day. It was really annoying to have 7 kids his age, all who seem to speak in a normal tone of 100+ decibles. (Grr).

I did something... potentially stupid and I'm going to do something that is potentially more stupid. (But oh well, it's the thought that counts right?) There's a girl at school (no names, but you know who you are) whom I'm starting to really like, mostly because she likes my poetry and we both like rock & roll and some sci-fi programs. And she's pretty. (and other reasons, but those are fairly indescribable). So I am now pondering the idea of asking her out for coffee on friday. I'm really hoping she'll say yes, but I'm expecting a no (for purely lack of self-confidence reasons). Anyways, we'll see where that goes.

Well... KoS and his now ex-girlfriend broke up... KoS, I have this to say. I don't agree with her ex's method, and I do believe it's a ploy to get her back. But hey, your life, not mine and I'm through interfering in other people's relationships. (But can you say OVERPOSSESIVE!!!!!).

jesus... okay

(got that off my chest).

Yes, this new girl, dont have a nickname for her yet, but I will have to think of one wont i??

Anyways, I've put in my two cents for the day.

(39 DAYS TILL TIMMINS!!!!!)

Late

I've been sick all week (and am still sick) but I'm here typing now. I've missed every day today except monday (when i was feeling sortof okay) and wensday (when i had to go in). Have to go in monday as well, oh well.

(hyper). I'm so excited, hyper etc and I wish I could invent a time machine! It is now exactly 6 weeks and one day (43 days) until I get to meet freya! (hyper). Hehehe.

Still working on her present, but it's going to be awesome when finished.

(cough KoS, thats your daily reminder :P)

Sorry I wasn't on yesterday, I wasn't feeling very good so I stayed in bed or on the couch all of last night.

(hyper)

Alright, I'll calm down. Yeah, I'm still alive, still kicking...

Might have some new poetry for the poetry blog later today, if I can find where I put that damnable notebook of mine.

*evil grin*

Alright, can't think of much else to say. later.