Wednesday, April 07, 2004
wendsday
Welcome. Today, I learned her answer to my question and the answer was unfortunatly a "Sorry but, no".
Guess I'm taking this harder than I should be... but who cares.
Everything seemed to be going so right... and suddenly it all took a turn for the worse. I was already in a depressed mood today, because I found out today that a member of our school community (somebody I didn't know and now never will) died. The whole school was immensly saddened and I, though I didn't know him, was also. Human life is precious.
Then I was really annoyed with myself for scoring under 80% on the math test. I know to most of you it doesn't seem like such a big deal but... it is to me! Math is one of my few skills and I hate to think I could be slipping. They were all such stupid mistakes, if I was only thinking clearly (Which I wasn't) I might not have made them. If only I hadn't rushed. Grrr.
Then I found out that Natalie said no. Enough said.
People started pissing me off immensely when I went to band rehersal... not certain if I did any good there but I showed up and that shuold be enough.
Forgive me if I don't have much to say. Today has not been one of the better days of my life and I would prefer to be silent about it now.
Forgive me anyone whom I have offended in any way today. I am sorry.
Good night all. I will of course be online for a while, listening to music.
Goodnight.
Guess I'm taking this harder than I should be... but who cares.
Everything seemed to be going so right... and suddenly it all took a turn for the worse. I was already in a depressed mood today, because I found out today that a member of our school community (somebody I didn't know and now never will) died. The whole school was immensly saddened and I, though I didn't know him, was also. Human life is precious.
Then I was really annoyed with myself for scoring under 80% on the math test. I know to most of you it doesn't seem like such a big deal but... it is to me! Math is one of my few skills and I hate to think I could be slipping. They were all such stupid mistakes, if I was only thinking clearly (Which I wasn't) I might not have made them. If only I hadn't rushed. Grrr.
Then I found out that Natalie said no. Enough said.
People started pissing me off immensely when I went to band rehersal... not certain if I did any good there but I showed up and that shuold be enough.
Forgive me if I don't have much to say. Today has not been one of the better days of my life and I would prefer to be silent about it now.
Forgive me anyone whom I have offended in any way today. I am sorry.
Good night all. I will of course be online for a while, listening to music.
Goodnight.
// posted by Dep @ 8:16:00 p.m.
