Thursday, April 06, 2006
Ponderations
The thoughts in my head are... difficult to express to anyone at the best of time, most of all, the person I refered to as \she\ in the past journal entry (thank you Eve for your compliments). It is a combination of many things. Promises I once made to myself that I now contemplate breaking. Worries that I'm not giving myself enough time, worries that it's too soon to even think about speaking. And the usually worries of rejection, ruination of friendships and such.
This is sometimes a good thing, I'm sure... it prevents me from leaping into anything too quickly.
Just wish I could turn off the thoughts in my head, the 'what if's... and I wish there was a really easy way to know if somebody likes you.
But this is the price we pay and when things come together well, it can be spectacular. One must cling to the hope and the hope that there is hope.
On a completely related and different topic, I have become the master of the non-answer... the answer that gives you no direct confirmations of your suspicions, yet doesn't eliminate them altogether either. I feel evil. Muwhahahaha.
Alright, I'm going to bed
G'night all!
- Dep
This is sometimes a good thing, I'm sure... it prevents me from leaping into anything too quickly.
Just wish I could turn off the thoughts in my head, the 'what if's... and I wish there was a really easy way to know if somebody likes you.
But this is the price we pay and when things come together well, it can be spectacular. One must cling to the hope and the hope that there is hope.
On a completely related and different topic, I have become the master of the non-answer... the answer that gives you no direct confirmations of your suspicions, yet doesn't eliminate them altogether either. I feel evil. Muwhahahaha.
Alright, I'm going to bed
G'night all!
- Dep
// posted by Dep @ 10:45:00 p.m.
