Monday, March 13, 2006
So Very Cold
I just love walking through freezing rain.
I've been reading through my post last night and realized that it doesn't make a lot of sense, heh. I'm not sure if I had much of a point. I have a lot of time to think today, since I don't have class until 1...
I suppose I feel a bit odd because my views are so different from most of my classmates. They seem quite focused on getting laid - probably a College thing - and here I am, thinking about relationships and romance. My dreams aren't of hardcore sex, they're of cuddling. That's not to say that I don't like sex... au contraire completement. I couldn't live a life of celibacy. But its never been the focus of a relationship for me... its not the driving reason. And if it takes time and a lot of trust to get to the point where somebody is comfortable, then I don't see the problem with that - some people have difficulties because of their life or for whatever reason... and it's hard to put yourself there. For somebody I had feelings for, I know I would be willing to help them and be understanding of their situation because I understand. I was like that once. When I was younger, I was very afraid of just taking off my clothes, especially around my girlfriend at the time (whom, for three years, could only get my top off), because I felt too vunerable. Even now, I need to be comfortable with somebody before just taking things off - one of the reasons I don't think I could ever get into the swinger/bachelor lifestyle that people like Daren enjoy. And there are reasons behind why I don't, but we won't get into those. Ask, if you're horribly curious, but I don't feel like revealing all of my past here. And so I've been different... and I enjoy being different, quite frankly.
*shakes head* but with my horrible luck with recent relationships, it seems impossible. I am a bit picky in what I like, but really its simple. A person who can accept me for me, a romantic and at least a moderate level of intelligence/understanding. Beyond that... well personality plays a part, but if you have those three things, personality shouldn't be a terrible problem. And when I say intelligence/understanding, I don't mean you're a genius at such and such. I mean you're one of those insane people who goes beyond society, who isn't afraid to be themselves.
Anyways, I need food and to do work. Perhaps I'll be more clear once I eat.
- Rob
I've been reading through my post last night and realized that it doesn't make a lot of sense, heh. I'm not sure if I had much of a point. I have a lot of time to think today, since I don't have class until 1...
I suppose I feel a bit odd because my views are so different from most of my classmates. They seem quite focused on getting laid - probably a College thing - and here I am, thinking about relationships and romance. My dreams aren't of hardcore sex, they're of cuddling. That's not to say that I don't like sex... au contraire completement. I couldn't live a life of celibacy. But its never been the focus of a relationship for me... its not the driving reason. And if it takes time and a lot of trust to get to the point where somebody is comfortable, then I don't see the problem with that - some people have difficulties because of their life or for whatever reason... and it's hard to put yourself there. For somebody I had feelings for, I know I would be willing to help them and be understanding of their situation because I understand. I was like that once. When I was younger, I was very afraid of just taking off my clothes, especially around my girlfriend at the time (whom, for three years, could only get my top off), because I felt too vunerable. Even now, I need to be comfortable with somebody before just taking things off - one of the reasons I don't think I could ever get into the swinger/bachelor lifestyle that people like Daren enjoy. And there are reasons behind why I don't, but we won't get into those. Ask, if you're horribly curious, but I don't feel like revealing all of my past here. And so I've been different... and I enjoy being different, quite frankly.
*shakes head* but with my horrible luck with recent relationships, it seems impossible. I am a bit picky in what I like, but really its simple. A person who can accept me for me, a romantic and at least a moderate level of intelligence/understanding. Beyond that... well personality plays a part, but if you have those three things, personality shouldn't be a terrible problem. And when I say intelligence/understanding, I don't mean you're a genius at such and such. I mean you're one of those insane people who goes beyond society, who isn't afraid to be themselves.
Anyways, I need food and to do work. Perhaps I'll be more clear once I eat.
- Rob
// posted by Dep @ 11:32:00 a.m.
