Sunday, March 26, 2006
The Censored Report
Well originally, I had this long journal entry written down in an RTF file (its still undergoing modifications as more thoughts come to mind... eventually I should start a new one eh?) but I've decided to censor a bit of it, in case ********** castrates me for my rants about ********** being a fucking ********* with the IQ of a ***.
[RANT]************* and then the ****** with the ****** [/RANT]
You get the idea, I'm sure.
On with the actual entry!
I... had an awesome time last night with Ash and two people I have never before encountered... Tiff and Jo. It began as a harmless excusion to East Side's, where I encountered the full force of Tiff's random bouncyness. It was amusing. East Side's was good... Eve is right, we did have a cute waiter... and he did walk in on some of the most amusing comments about rape and sexual perversion... but he just walked away quickly and was polishing a rifle in the background. And I made sexual advances towards Jo but they were turned down *cries* just kidding... I was kidding. Sort of. :P (Nah, I was kidding)
After this, it was to see Martin/Rachel (Martin I had met over Christmas), with the dropping off of a TV and the crazed antics of the 3 year old... who thinks a rodent is a lobster and took great amusement out of passing a ball back and forth. It was interesting. Ash and I tortured Tiff with the biting of knees and wrists :D.
Then... to Bell Park, which was beautiful (my first time there) where we saw first a creepy star that MOVED IN CIRCLES AND GLOWED. WTF. Probably a UFO... or a satellite. Anyways, we also saw a shooting star which is the first time my life I've actually really seen a shooting star (outside of my own fiction).... and yes I made a wish... all I'll say is I am a really really corney person. The park was entertaining with Jo trying to catch Eve while she ran off the stage... and he succeeded... and then fell with her as he was trying to put her back on.
The evening ended... too soon in my opinion, but it was getting late. I came back here to find Nicky had a few friends over (so much for worrying about being out late - they were still here when I passed out). I wrote, I thought and I passed out... only to wake up with my usual caffeine headache...
They're the oddest things... when I drink, I don't get a hangover (probably because I drink so much water when I drink). But when I drink caffeine, I get massive hangovers. Can caffeine dehydrate you? Or maybe it just gives me headaches... I should try stopping again one of these days. The problem is I stop, and its good... until something really stressful comes up again (like a massive massive project or my damn personal life) and then its.... 'I need one... just one...' and then BANG I'm back where I usually am.
Last night was excellent yes, in both the fun sense but also in a number of other ways. I'd hate to sound melodramatic, but it was another step on the path of reevaluating my friendships and keeping only the good ones. Even though I was a stranger to these people, I really felt at home with them. I didn't feel the need to censor myself and I could just relax... thats unusual for me. And so many people I've counted as close friends don't bring that feeling in me... and treat me far worse. Especially *********, who was really ******** last night. I think ****** is pissed off because of my ******** last night with *********. **** just takes things so freaking ************ that its very aggravating. Usually this is good for me, because I've had a lot on my mind with various feelings for people, the whole thing with Courtney and a couple of other issues and I can just let them go... but I can't talk to ******* anymore about personal things. Our viewpoints are too different and ******* has a fairly cold attitude towards me... we barely speak, even though we're ********************. (I just like censoring things... I'm so going to be a governement employee one of these days - the guy with the black marker who censors documents for the media). Seriously... what kind of friendship is it if you feel closer to people you've known a few hours.
I definately want to come back to Sudbury and see Ash/Tiff/Jo again... it was great. And I think they have plots to either kidnap me or come visit me which would be great.
Anyways... m'yeah. Other topics before I go... *ponders*.
I hear you Eve about relationships... its odd, because its like listening to the thoughts in my head. Really scarey somedays. My thoughts are just a blur on the matter at the moment, so...yeah. lol
And I retroactively add being stabbed with an ex-canary to my list of tortures for people who can't deal with my openness on my journal... that actually would explain ******'s attitude... pissed off at my last journal entry no doubt.
And perhaps a bit envious/pissed off that I'm not taking her side in the thing between the two. But fuck her. And not liteally.
Sometimes, people need to learn a lesson the harsh way. The upside of that is, the harsh way sticks so much better than listening to your friends. But the harsh way is also harsh.... hence why it is called the 'harsh' way. (crazy illiterations about harping harsh hash come to mind). *shrugs* some people can't learn any other way.
*lifts mug of caffeinated beverage* to friendship, to love and to the good times
*drinks*
*hugs*
- Dep
[RANT]************* and then the ****** with the ****** [/RANT]
You get the idea, I'm sure.
On with the actual entry!
I... had an awesome time last night with Ash and two people I have never before encountered... Tiff and Jo. It began as a harmless excusion to East Side's, where I encountered the full force of Tiff's random bouncyness. It was amusing. East Side's was good... Eve is right, we did have a cute waiter... and he did walk in on some of the most amusing comments about rape and sexual perversion... but he just walked away quickly and was polishing a rifle in the background. And I made sexual advances towards Jo but they were turned down *cries* just kidding... I was kidding. Sort of. :P (Nah, I was kidding)
After this, it was to see Martin/Rachel (Martin I had met over Christmas), with the dropping off of a TV and the crazed antics of the 3 year old... who thinks a rodent is a lobster and took great amusement out of passing a ball back and forth. It was interesting. Ash and I tortured Tiff with the biting of knees and wrists :D.
Then... to Bell Park, which was beautiful (my first time there) where we saw first a creepy star that MOVED IN CIRCLES AND GLOWED. WTF. Probably a UFO... or a satellite. Anyways, we also saw a shooting star which is the first time my life I've actually really seen a shooting star (outside of my own fiction).... and yes I made a wish... all I'll say is I am a really really corney person. The park was entertaining with Jo trying to catch Eve while she ran off the stage... and he succeeded... and then fell with her as he was trying to put her back on.
The evening ended... too soon in my opinion, but it was getting late. I came back here to find Nicky had a few friends over (so much for worrying about being out late - they were still here when I passed out). I wrote, I thought and I passed out... only to wake up with my usual caffeine headache...
They're the oddest things... when I drink, I don't get a hangover (probably because I drink so much water when I drink). But when I drink caffeine, I get massive hangovers. Can caffeine dehydrate you? Or maybe it just gives me headaches... I should try stopping again one of these days. The problem is I stop, and its good... until something really stressful comes up again (like a massive massive project or my damn personal life) and then its.... 'I need one... just one...' and then BANG I'm back where I usually am.
Last night was excellent yes, in both the fun sense but also in a number of other ways. I'd hate to sound melodramatic, but it was another step on the path of reevaluating my friendships and keeping only the good ones. Even though I was a stranger to these people, I really felt at home with them. I didn't feel the need to censor myself and I could just relax... thats unusual for me. And so many people I've counted as close friends don't bring that feeling in me... and treat me far worse. Especially *********, who was really ******** last night. I think ****** is pissed off because of my ******** last night with *********. **** just takes things so freaking ************ that its very aggravating. Usually this is good for me, because I've had a lot on my mind with various feelings for people, the whole thing with Courtney and a couple of other issues and I can just let them go... but I can't talk to ******* anymore about personal things. Our viewpoints are too different and ******* has a fairly cold attitude towards me... we barely speak, even though we're ********************. (I just like censoring things... I'm so going to be a governement employee one of these days - the guy with the black marker who censors documents for the media). Seriously... what kind of friendship is it if you feel closer to people you've known a few hours.
I definately want to come back to Sudbury and see Ash/Tiff/Jo again... it was great. And I think they have plots to either kidnap me or come visit me which would be great.
Anyways... m'yeah. Other topics before I go... *ponders*.
I hear you Eve about relationships... its odd, because its like listening to the thoughts in my head. Really scarey somedays. My thoughts are just a blur on the matter at the moment, so...yeah. lol
And I retroactively add being stabbed with an ex-canary to my list of tortures for people who can't deal with my openness on my journal... that actually would explain ******'s attitude... pissed off at my last journal entry no doubt.
And perhaps a bit envious/pissed off that I'm not taking her side in the thing between the two. But fuck her. And not liteally.
Sometimes, people need to learn a lesson the harsh way. The upside of that is, the harsh way sticks so much better than listening to your friends. But the harsh way is also harsh.... hence why it is called the 'harsh' way. (crazy illiterations about harping harsh hash come to mind). *shrugs* some people can't learn any other way.
*lifts mug of caffeinated beverage* to friendship, to love and to the good times
*drinks*
*hugs*
- Dep
// posted by Dep @ 10:10:00 a.m.
