Monday, October 11, 2004
Today
Today has been... an awful day.
I wish first, however, to speak to Andarta. I hope that she will come online soon so that we may speak of things. Until then, however, I leave you with a poem.
TEARS OF SORROW
(Oct 11th 2004)
At first there was everything
I had the moon, the sun, the stars
You didn't have to give them
They came from your heart
I laughed, I danced I sang
And I believed in everything
Nothing could tear us apart
Nothing could end this feeling
Then there was doubt
A longing for something else
But, banishing it to the winds
I sent it back to the dark
I laughed, I danced and I sang
But deep within my heart
Was now the seed of doubt
And things might never be the same
The music ended, the dance was over
The last dance was never saved
There was nothing more to laugh about
Darkness had taken it's toll
And tears fell, tears of guilt
For what I had done to you
For the lies I had told
For the deeds I had done
Then I looked deep within myself
And I found gentle truth
My doubts faded, hope grew strong
And I knew I could save it all
What is truth you say
When you've hidden all from me
Me, whom you've claimed to love
How can I believe?
I hang my head in sorrow
As I know I've done you wrong
I can only ask your forgiveness
And now speak the truth
There has been love in my heart
From the day I met you
From the day I saw the smile on your face
Which tugged at my heart strings
From the day I felt your lips on mine
I knew of this feeling inside
From the moment I saw the love in your eyes
I knew this course of mine
Baby, I haven't always been strong
I have often faltered in my path
But today I stand up strong
And know where life will lead
Life will lead, if you still want
To the moonlite shores that we share
We'll dance in the moonlight together
And snuggle in the darkness after
This is the life I want
A life with you, I know
To hold you and say those magical words
I love you, again and again
I have hidden what should have been shown
And for that I am sorry
I can only beg your forgiveness
And hope that you will grant it
I looked inside myself
And found gentle truth
I've loved you all along
Only questioned my resolve
So where do we go from here
Can you forgive me of my mistakes
For now, looking at the hurt in your eyes
I realize the gentle truth
To see you in pain, tears at my heart
To imagine life without you is terrible
And now I know, I know that you believe
As I once believed in myself
Tears fall once again from my eyes
But now they are tears of sorrow
For the love that I may have lost
If you cannot forgive me of my sins
Should my sins be forgiven
I will stay this course
For now, knowing how much I love
I will never again risk to lose
I am truly sorry, my love
I pray that you will forgive me
Now I go to dream
Of my life as I want it to be
Of moonlite nights and starlit whispers
And days filled with so much joy
Now I go to dream
Of my love, so far away
But as I dream, my tears will fall
Tears of sorrow upon my pillow
For the love I may have lost
Farewell all
I wish first, however, to speak to Andarta. I hope that she will come online soon so that we may speak of things. Until then, however, I leave you with a poem.
TEARS OF SORROW
(Oct 11th 2004)
At first there was everything
I had the moon, the sun, the stars
You didn't have to give them
They came from your heart
I laughed, I danced I sang
And I believed in everything
Nothing could tear us apart
Nothing could end this feeling
Then there was doubt
A longing for something else
But, banishing it to the winds
I sent it back to the dark
I laughed, I danced and I sang
But deep within my heart
Was now the seed of doubt
And things might never be the same
The music ended, the dance was over
The last dance was never saved
There was nothing more to laugh about
Darkness had taken it's toll
And tears fell, tears of guilt
For what I had done to you
For the lies I had told
For the deeds I had done
Then I looked deep within myself
And I found gentle truth
My doubts faded, hope grew strong
And I knew I could save it all
What is truth you say
When you've hidden all from me
Me, whom you've claimed to love
How can I believe?
I hang my head in sorrow
As I know I've done you wrong
I can only ask your forgiveness
And now speak the truth
There has been love in my heart
From the day I met you
From the day I saw the smile on your face
Which tugged at my heart strings
From the day I felt your lips on mine
I knew of this feeling inside
From the moment I saw the love in your eyes
I knew this course of mine
Baby, I haven't always been strong
I have often faltered in my path
But today I stand up strong
And know where life will lead
Life will lead, if you still want
To the moonlite shores that we share
We'll dance in the moonlight together
And snuggle in the darkness after
This is the life I want
A life with you, I know
To hold you and say those magical words
I love you, again and again
I have hidden what should have been shown
And for that I am sorry
I can only beg your forgiveness
And hope that you will grant it
I looked inside myself
And found gentle truth
I've loved you all along
Only questioned my resolve
So where do we go from here
Can you forgive me of my mistakes
For now, looking at the hurt in your eyes
I realize the gentle truth
To see you in pain, tears at my heart
To imagine life without you is terrible
And now I know, I know that you believe
As I once believed in myself
Tears fall once again from my eyes
But now they are tears of sorrow
For the love that I may have lost
If you cannot forgive me of my sins
Should my sins be forgiven
I will stay this course
For now, knowing how much I love
I will never again risk to lose
I am truly sorry, my love
I pray that you will forgive me
Now I go to dream
Of my life as I want it to be
Of moonlite nights and starlit whispers
And days filled with so much joy
Now I go to dream
Of my love, so far away
But as I dream, my tears will fall
Tears of sorrow upon my pillow
For the love I may have lost
Farewell all
// posted by Dep @ 8:39:00 p.m.
