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Wednesday, August 18, 2004

A Day Without Blogging... OMG

my god... I actually went the entire day without blogging. I'm shocked. (Well technically it was a day, considering it's now 12:30AM and my last blog was before midnight two days ago. That's Monday to the temporally challenged lol.)

So... what to talk about tonight.

I dunno what mood I'm in. *sigh* Sortof down I guess. I know school's going to be awesome, but I'm still nervous. I don't know if I can do this. I mean, yeah high school math was a breeze and I doubt I'll have any problems with calculus this year. But Biology... bio was never my best subject. In fact, it's one of my worst. And I've never done dissection (wonders of being in french immersion) and we'll probably do that this year. Argh! I'm actually hoping it's more advanced biology, not anatomy of frogs but more genetics, cellular biology, stuff like that. I can do cellular biology and genetics is something that I find interesting. But taking apart a frog? ugh. (yeah I'm a wuss lol). Same for chemistry. I love the theory side of chemistry and even some of the practical side. But if we get into solutions and gases (and I believe we will) then ugh. Ah well... whatever happens will happens. English is going to be fun I hope, and same for Philosophy. Badminton is just easy and as for Introduction to an Office Suite are you kidding? I've known how to use one of those things since I was like 12. Probably not even worth going to half the classes and the stuff I haven't learned is stuff that no one will use except once in a blue moon.

*sigh* so... I dunno. Classes are classes and I've always done well. Just may need a little extra work in Bio and Chem this year. (and maybe even calculus... intergals looked hard. derivatives are no problem though.)

I miss Andarta.

Yeah it's funny. We're not even dating (yet I hope) and yet I still miss her a lot. I can't wait til we next see each other. I'm hoping cegep will take my mind off of missing her a bit, give me something to do so I don't just sit around all day and brood on it. Plus working too, for the same reason (as well as to make money). But even talking with her over the net really helps. It'll light up my day and let me go to sleep at night with a smile on my face. But she can't always be on-line talking to me, she's got a life too. Ah well, I can live with that. Cherish the time we do have together.

I'm calling it a night at 1:30AM unless she shows up. Maybe go write some after this, maybe find a book. Maybe I'll just add to this blog until 1:30 lol. (Yeah, like I'm that creative).

I dunno... there are days when I just tell myself she can't like me this much. It's... it's... it's the best thing that I've ever felt and good things don't happen to me. There's always some problem, some complication. The only person who's ever actually liked me enough to ask me out was a complete and utter psycho. No, that's unkind. Her and I... we just didn't think anywhere near alike. It wasn't working for me and I don't know if it was for her either. We were two very different people. And come to think of it, I didn't even feel that strongly for her. More of a mild attraction. (This was proven when we broke up... she freaked and started spreading lies about me like how I'm an ass and wanted to molest her. Yeah. Me molest someone, that's funny.) *sigh* I can't say I hated all of the relationship. She was the only one of my girlfriends who liked to cuddle. My best memory of that was of watching the movie "The Core" when it first came out in theatres and she nearly fell asleep on my shoulder. *sigh* good times. Vicki and I were close sometimes but I never got the feeling that she liked it. (I on the other hand, was thoroughly enjoying it). I remember how vicki and I used to get together every saturday night to watch a movie or two or three. Sometimes we had Jill come over and watch with us (she brought over Rocky Horror one night and got me addicted... curse her!) *sigh*

Yeah, I'm in a nostalgic mood, I know. It's the only thing I could think of to fill 45minutes worth of writing (as I can't think of anything to write a poem about).

heh... Vicki and I started to watch Lilo and Stich that night too, but it was like 1AM and I had to go home (my parents weren't letting me sleep over there yet). We never got to finish that movie... we broke up three weeks later and we barely saw each other in between.

It's odd... you can take aspects of everyone of my ex-girlfriends and just make a perfect image of my perfect woman. Take Vicki's twisted sense of humour and most of her personality, add in Dorothy's caring and wanting to cuddle, then add Jess's intelligence and Scorpie's playfulness (yeah Scorpie, ur playful lol, when ur in a good mood). And... actually these are pretty much all found in Andarta. So I suppose I'm lucky. Now if only she lived here lol... or I lived there.

yeah... I really miss her. stupid distance... wish someone would invent a teleporter or something, so we could have instant travel across vast distances. but since when has something being hard stopped me from doing it eh? And it's not forever that we'll be apart. Plus we'll be able to meet from time to time. (As often as we have the money and the spare time to see each other I hope)

Alright, it's 1AM, I'm done rambling. Instead I'm going to go listen to music with a pad of paper and a pencil in front of me for another bit, post anything I come up with and then go to bed.

Later all and *hugs* Andarta if I miss you tonight.

PS: Andarta, I dunno if you've made your decision or not yet, but if you have, well, lets talk about it next time I see you.

// posted by Dep @ 12:36:00 a.m.

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