Saturday, July 31, 2004
alright, some more tonight
Well I've posted in my private blog and I've even thrown up some new poetry which will be going on the website as soon as I'm done writing this.
Just going to let myself randomly babble now.
Ever been torn between paths? I am right now. See I like Goldie. I really like her, we've known each other for years, I know a lot about her. We get along alright, though sometimes I have difficulties talking to her about emotional things. And we're both twisted in a lot of the same ways (though I have to say this, she is the queen of twistedness.) So maybe she's insane... so what? I'm a touch insane, I have to be. Probably most of you are a touch insane as well. We differ on a few things... the major things being how much affection is too much and stuff like that. It's all about emotions really, with me being the more emotional one and she being the less emotional one. I'm willing to lower it a little bit on my part. Dunno about her, it's one of the things we have to talk about but have difficulty talking about.
Cursed hypermyopia
So Goldie and I have our difficulties but sometimes the difficult path leads to the best reward right? So I was going to go talk to her about these things (Those of you who've read my private blog know what things) and hope that she'll change her mind about showing her feelings. Perhaps a fool's hope but it was the best I had at the time. Now here's the problem.
I came back here and I discovered I still liked someone. She'll remain nameless for now, but suffice to say she's someone I really really like. We've got our problems too... the distance factor has to be considered. Goldie and I can walk to each others houses, that isn't possible here. (Hell biking isn't even a possibility here.)
So I've got a touch of a dilemna. I'm 90% certain that Goldie likes me. I don't even know if the other one likes me still.
In a perfect world, where anything is possible... I'd go with the other one. But we don't live in a perfect world. Anything may be possible but there are some things that are improbable.
*sigh*
I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to talk this over with Scorpie and Scrabble when I see them next and figure out what the hell I'm going to do. Maybe I should just pick no one and wait 'til University to find a steady girlfriend.
Anyways, that's it for now. My ramblings about sex and traveling can wait for another day.
Later
Just going to let myself randomly babble now.
Ever been torn between paths? I am right now. See I like Goldie. I really like her, we've known each other for years, I know a lot about her. We get along alright, though sometimes I have difficulties talking to her about emotional things. And we're both twisted in a lot of the same ways (though I have to say this, she is the queen of twistedness.) So maybe she's insane... so what? I'm a touch insane, I have to be. Probably most of you are a touch insane as well. We differ on a few things... the major things being how much affection is too much and stuff like that. It's all about emotions really, with me being the more emotional one and she being the less emotional one. I'm willing to lower it a little bit on my part. Dunno about her, it's one of the things we have to talk about but have difficulty talking about.
Cursed hypermyopia
So Goldie and I have our difficulties but sometimes the difficult path leads to the best reward right? So I was going to go talk to her about these things (Those of you who've read my private blog know what things) and hope that she'll change her mind about showing her feelings. Perhaps a fool's hope but it was the best I had at the time. Now here's the problem.
I came back here and I discovered I still liked someone. She'll remain nameless for now, but suffice to say she's someone I really really like. We've got our problems too... the distance factor has to be considered. Goldie and I can walk to each others houses, that isn't possible here. (Hell biking isn't even a possibility here.)
So I've got a touch of a dilemna. I'm 90% certain that Goldie likes me. I don't even know if the other one likes me still.
In a perfect world, where anything is possible... I'd go with the other one. But we don't live in a perfect world. Anything may be possible but there are some things that are improbable.
*sigh*
I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to talk this over with Scorpie and Scrabble when I see them next and figure out what the hell I'm going to do. Maybe I should just pick no one and wait 'til University to find a steady girlfriend.
Anyways, that's it for now. My ramblings about sex and traveling can wait for another day.
Later
// posted by Dep @ 9:40:00 p.m.
