Thursday, May 13, 2004
off to timmins
off to timmins saturday morning. I'm going to be so tired tomorrow night, what with the concert followed by last-minute packing and wanting to go to bed early so i can get up at 5AM... I won't have time to blog. So I thought I'd add some tonight.
can't believe i'm actually going to finally meet freya! i'm really excited and hyper... but also a bit nervous (a bit? HA! try very)
I've been doing a lot of thinking these last few days about my love life, trying to figure out who I really like and who I just faked liking so I wouldn't be alone. DDM thinks everyone fits into the latter catagory... I don't think so. I think there are three people I have actually liked (and perhaps loved) out of those I have dated or thought of dating... and perhaps a fourth whom I am not sure of. These people do not know who they are... and it will probably stay like that. I'm sure you can guess though. (No I won't tell you.)
So what does this mean? It means I think I fall in love when I don't and I do it a lot. I'm going to try very hard not to again. Right now I have... well... obviously those three and maybe a fourth on my mind. I know what order I would place them in if the world was as I wanted it. I know what order I would place them in right now, knowing what they feel about me and how free they are. I guess my main problem right now is... prom is coming up and I don't have a date! lol. such a silly problem. Yes Scrabble, I'll go. grrr.
I think I've learned my lesson. Whether or not I have is something we have to wait and see.
On the positive side of life, DDM and Scorpie are back together. This time I have no misgivings and they specifically do not depress me. (Obviously Scorpie isn't one of those four...) I know maybe it seems like its her and him which depress me sometimes, but really it's just seeing a happy couple and wanting to be in a relationship like that... nothing specific to her. But I wish them a happy relationship and a long one as well.
There are days when I get really down and I think I will never find someone. It's days like that that I am glad I have people here to remind me what kind of person I am... one who deserves to have a loving woman by his side and will find one one day. Thank you to anyone who's told me this ever. Just keep shouting it in my ear, eventually it'll stick.
One of my friends, Roots Kid, is planning a transfer to D'Arcy next year. She says its because everyone bullies her at Philemon and the teachers are mean and etc etc etc.
I think, when she gets there, she's in for a big surprise. I doubt D'Arcy has any less bullying than Philemon and probably has more. (And some of the teachers there are awful). But in the end it is her choice and I will not argue with her anymore, having told her all the second-hand information I have on D'Arcy.
Calgary is now Canada's only hope for a stanley cup this year... go calgary. (its actually going pretty good, 2-0 for the flames, with both games played in san jose).
Next year, I've been accepted into Heritage, payed my fees, etc etc. Just have to pass all my courses this year (not a problem for this high-eighty and FINALLY A LOW 90S student)
well it is 11:30PM and I am dead tired. I think sleep might be a good idea. Tomorrow is a big day.
later everyone.
OH PS: E-MAIL ME any questions you have... i'm bored and feel like responding to questions.
later
can't believe i'm actually going to finally meet freya! i'm really excited and hyper... but also a bit nervous (a bit? HA! try very)
I've been doing a lot of thinking these last few days about my love life, trying to figure out who I really like and who I just faked liking so I wouldn't be alone. DDM thinks everyone fits into the latter catagory... I don't think so. I think there are three people I have actually liked (and perhaps loved) out of those I have dated or thought of dating... and perhaps a fourth whom I am not sure of. These people do not know who they are... and it will probably stay like that. I'm sure you can guess though. (No I won't tell you.)
So what does this mean? It means I think I fall in love when I don't and I do it a lot. I'm going to try very hard not to again. Right now I have... well... obviously those three and maybe a fourth on my mind. I know what order I would place them in if the world was as I wanted it. I know what order I would place them in right now, knowing what they feel about me and how free they are. I guess my main problem right now is... prom is coming up and I don't have a date! lol. such a silly problem. Yes Scrabble, I'll go. grrr.
I think I've learned my lesson. Whether or not I have is something we have to wait and see.
On the positive side of life, DDM and Scorpie are back together. This time I have no misgivings and they specifically do not depress me. (Obviously Scorpie isn't one of those four...) I know maybe it seems like its her and him which depress me sometimes, but really it's just seeing a happy couple and wanting to be in a relationship like that... nothing specific to her. But I wish them a happy relationship and a long one as well.
There are days when I get really down and I think I will never find someone. It's days like that that I am glad I have people here to remind me what kind of person I am... one who deserves to have a loving woman by his side and will find one one day. Thank you to anyone who's told me this ever. Just keep shouting it in my ear, eventually it'll stick.
One of my friends, Roots Kid, is planning a transfer to D'Arcy next year. She says its because everyone bullies her at Philemon and the teachers are mean and etc etc etc.
I think, when she gets there, she's in for a big surprise. I doubt D'Arcy has any less bullying than Philemon and probably has more. (And some of the teachers there are awful). But in the end it is her choice and I will not argue with her anymore, having told her all the second-hand information I have on D'Arcy.
Calgary is now Canada's only hope for a stanley cup this year... go calgary. (its actually going pretty good, 2-0 for the flames, with both games played in san jose).
Next year, I've been accepted into Heritage, payed my fees, etc etc. Just have to pass all my courses this year (not a problem for this high-eighty and FINALLY A LOW 90S student)
well it is 11:30PM and I am dead tired. I think sleep might be a good idea. Tomorrow is a big day.
later everyone.
OH PS: E-MAIL ME any questions you have... i'm bored and feel like responding to questions.
later
// posted by Dep @ 11:09:00 p.m.
