Tuesday, March 16, 2004
tuesday
i know i promised to post yesterday but i ran out of time and i had to go to sleep (Having not slept sunday night)
DDM and Scorpie broke up yesterday. Yes I knew about it in advance... I didn't warn her because DDM asked me to stay silent. I did speak to someone about it (Dark Angel) because it was starting to get to me, not being able to talk about it with anyone (i wasn't forbidden from talking about it, just there was no one to talk about it with) Anyways.
He broke up with her by the way. Today however he flirted with her more than normally, even while they were dating. For somebody who told me saturday, and I quote "I don't feel anything for her, when I kiss her I don't feel a spark, and I don't feel my heart beating faster... though my pants tend to get tighter for some reason. no, not even lust. lust would be if I got a boner every time I saw her. I don't. she actually has to sit on me for that to happen."
*sigh* I don't know why he does it... I really don't. The cynical side of me tells me it's DDM and I should expect him to act like this. ah well. Just hope he doesn't start into a going out one day, not going out the next, going out the one after that etc etc etc pattern kind of relationship (Which he has had before). Scorpie doesn't deserve that, she deserves something a lot better.
I've added more poems in case anybody wants to read them (I added them a bit ago and I'm adding one more right after I post this.)
I STILL have to write Freya a letter... I'm really sorry if you're reading this, but this week has been... hectic. I promise a long one.
I've been so tired lately... not just physically (Which is probably because I'm sick) but also mentally. I've been losing the will slowly to do work on my projects. Losing my enthusiasm, my determination as if it's being sapped away. Hopefully this will stop.
I have nothing more to say about Scorpie tonight... asides from saying that I love her and I'll always be there for her and if she ever needs me, she has but to ask.
Anyways, I am tired so that will have to do for now.
Too many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep, there's no way out
Somehow I just don't believe it
Runaway train, never coming back
Wrong way on a one way track
- Runaway Train (by Soul Asylum)
Later all
DDM and Scorpie broke up yesterday. Yes I knew about it in advance... I didn't warn her because DDM asked me to stay silent. I did speak to someone about it (Dark Angel) because it was starting to get to me, not being able to talk about it with anyone (i wasn't forbidden from talking about it, just there was no one to talk about it with) Anyways.
He broke up with her by the way. Today however he flirted with her more than normally, even while they were dating. For somebody who told me saturday, and I quote "I don't feel anything for her, when I kiss her I don't feel a spark, and I don't feel my heart beating faster... though my pants tend to get tighter for some reason. no, not even lust. lust would be if I got a boner every time I saw her. I don't. she actually has to sit on me for that to happen."
*sigh* I don't know why he does it... I really don't. The cynical side of me tells me it's DDM and I should expect him to act like this. ah well. Just hope he doesn't start into a going out one day, not going out the next, going out the one after that etc etc etc pattern kind of relationship (Which he has had before). Scorpie doesn't deserve that, she deserves something a lot better.
I've added more poems in case anybody wants to read them (I added them a bit ago and I'm adding one more right after I post this.)
I STILL have to write Freya a letter... I'm really sorry if you're reading this, but this week has been... hectic. I promise a long one.
I've been so tired lately... not just physically (Which is probably because I'm sick) but also mentally. I've been losing the will slowly to do work on my projects. Losing my enthusiasm, my determination as if it's being sapped away. Hopefully this will stop.
I have nothing more to say about Scorpie tonight... asides from saying that I love her and I'll always be there for her and if she ever needs me, she has but to ask.
Anyways, I am tired so that will have to do for now.
Too many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep, there's no way out
Somehow I just don't believe it
Runaway train, never coming back
Wrong way on a one way track
- Runaway Train (by Soul Asylum)
Later all
// posted by Dep @ 10:35:00 p.m.
