Tuesday, January 13, 2004
once again i have changed my mind
isn't life wonderful?
due to recent eventss and me bitch slapping myself I have decided to tell vicki. Here's my thinking.
If she's not in love with me as most of you seem to think, then she'll turn me down. If she is however....
You see what I mean? It's a win-win scenario. Well not exactly. I won't be stuck in between this time.
As for why... alright.
Recently I had entertained hopes about dating somebody else. These hopes have been.... dashed I guess is the best word. So now... I realize I must do what I have felt all along inside. Screw what the world thinks.
Onto other things.
Recently a friend of mine told me to act my age, like a 17yo. You know... christ. I really like her. I honestly do. She reminds me a lot of myself. Except for this one comment. It makes no sense! It's possible to act like somebody you're not, but if you do, I guarentee you won't be happy. I should know, I tried it for many years of my life and it didn't work. Conforming isn't the way to go. She then went on to say something I'm sure she didn't mean and we'll try and resolve that tomorrow.
(I was deeply and gravely insulted.)
Christ. Very few friends left with me at this moment. Roots Kid and I talk a lot now but I pissed Scrabble off a while ago (And no doubt just did again with my first statement) and I just pissed scorpi off. Freya's computers broken and I never see KoS. DDM is being his usual asshole self and pissing me off. (christ, will he ever learn?)
anyways, thats my bitching for today.
Be yourself.
later
due to recent eventss and me bitch slapping myself I have decided to tell vicki. Here's my thinking.
If she's not in love with me as most of you seem to think, then she'll turn me down. If she is however....
You see what I mean? It's a win-win scenario. Well not exactly. I won't be stuck in between this time.
As for why... alright.
Recently I had entertained hopes about dating somebody else. These hopes have been.... dashed I guess is the best word. So now... I realize I must do what I have felt all along inside. Screw what the world thinks.
Onto other things.
Recently a friend of mine told me to act my age, like a 17yo. You know... christ. I really like her. I honestly do. She reminds me a lot of myself. Except for this one comment. It makes no sense! It's possible to act like somebody you're not, but if you do, I guarentee you won't be happy. I should know, I tried it for many years of my life and it didn't work. Conforming isn't the way to go. She then went on to say something I'm sure she didn't mean and we'll try and resolve that tomorrow.
(I was deeply and gravely insulted.)
Christ. Very few friends left with me at this moment. Roots Kid and I talk a lot now but I pissed Scrabble off a while ago (And no doubt just did again with my first statement) and I just pissed scorpi off. Freya's computers broken and I never see KoS. DDM is being his usual asshole self and pissing me off. (christ, will he ever learn?)
anyways, thats my bitching for today.
Be yourself.
later
// posted by Dep @ 10:03:00 p.m.
