Evil Geniuses in a Nutshell

today i had a moment of weakness and considered dating somebody... i've now pretty much rejected that idea.

because honestly... it's like this.

there are a few aspects to my idea of a perfect relationship.

one is having intelligent conversation, philosophy perhaps or even just ideas about life. going out to movies, romantic dinners and all the other similar things...

then... the dirty side of me... hot kinky sex.

i've yet to find the perfect combination of the two.... but i must be patient

which is why i shouldn't date somebody just because they enjoy the same form of pleasure that i do.

and why i must keep trying for perfection... well not perfection, but something close.

*sigh*

tomorrow i am going to ask vicki what she wants me to do. it's been too long in the making, but i['ve made all the arrangements for partial privacy and the right people to be there. it is going to happen, i am going to ask. i'm not going to pressure her into giving me an answer... she can have all the time she wants. but this is the last time i'm going to ask her. if she says no, i will learn to live without her.

i'm starting to believe the people who say i'm not ugly... who say i'm sweet and kind.

heh... thats one side...

ah well

i'll find somebody one day. there has to be at least one woman in the world who likes a kinky romantic like me...

anyways...

farewell all.