Thursday, January 01, 2004
it's morning
while i am still hurt... upset... angry... etc over what happened last night... i'm no longer thinking of giving up. Rather i've been thinking about giving up on vicki altogether. But it needs one last try. I must do this and I must do it soon and... if it goes badly... it will be the last time.
I can't handle it anymore... being in between. I want it over one way or the other. I'm in love... and i'm willing to wait, knowing she loves me. But not knowing one way or the other??
i can't take being alone.
there are so many other things i'd like to try. and so many people that need my help. If i let vicki get me down, then they'll all be lost. So... I can't let her get me that far down. But I must try again. One last time.
that's all for now. can't think of anything more.
I can't handle it anymore... being in between. I want it over one way or the other. I'm in love... and i'm willing to wait, knowing she loves me. But not knowing one way or the other??
i can't take being alone.
there are so many other things i'd like to try. and so many people that need my help. If i let vicki get me down, then they'll all be lost. So... I can't let her get me that far down. But I must try again. One last time.
that's all for now. can't think of anything more.
// posted by Dep @ 8:26:00 a.m.
