Tuesday, December 02, 2003
welcome to december
i forgot to welcome you all to december last night... welcome to december (to all my 2 devoted readers... KoS and Freya)
well... it's been suggested again by Scorpi that i attempt to get published. This time i'm going through with it. (with scorpi's help of course and that of freya and a few other people... maybe roots kid if i can talk her into it)
life goes on much as it has these past few days. i'm going to tell vicki (waiting for the weekend so we're not so focused on homework) and i'm exploring other possibilties shall we say, with roots kid (though i know thats not going to work... but if her and her boyfriend ever break up or if scorpi ever changes her mind.... and if my grandmother had wheels, she'd be a wagon.) in any case, i'm a little bit happier since i had my fortune told that i would find love one day.
with who is not for me to know, until it is meant for me to know.
(dont ask)
anyways... life goes on, i still write (if you want them, you can ask for them) and i still plot against roots kid and freya (though freya doesnt know what im plotting about this time... hehehe)
as of late i have been questioning my belief in love. and i have now refound it again, stronger than ever, because i look at freya and angelis and know that sometimes love can work out. So I will take faith in the cards and hope it works out for me as well as it did for freya.
but, and i hope you all know this already, i dont force people into doing things they dont want to do. so mutual love is a must.
and love for me doesnt mean i wanna fuck your brains out. i had roots kid asking me if the only reason i liked her was because i wanted to have sex with her. she said some person told her this (no names). And this is complete bullshit. It's me! *sigh*
love is about feelings and emotions and caring and being together and, yeah sure you can have sex, but its not the main focus... its not the reason why you are there.
at least, thats what it is to me. loves funny, because lots of people have different interpretations of what it is.
anyways, im going to bed soon.
interior debates continue, but if things keep going the way they are ... hell i'm losing weight. how can that be bad? i can see the change in my figure when i look in the mirror. i've come to terms with the person i am. i have my education planned out in something i'm going to like doing. Now... if I had a steady girlfriend, life would be perfect. sure theres the day to day little things that piss you off, but if i was in love with someone in love with me and we were together, it would be the best thing that could happen. the little stuff wouldnt matter anymore. yeah, so im not that great a french student, so what? i'm an 80% student about, no better than english (thats only because we dont do pure short stories or poetry or reading w/o responding... grrr...)
getting published would be a pretty good thing also...
anyways... i'm going to bed now. and i hope things work out for me, and for all of you whom i care about. you all deserve to be happy, freya, kos, dark nova, scorpi, even ddms current girlfriend, roots kid.
off to bed... goodnight
well... it's been suggested again by Scorpi that i attempt to get published. This time i'm going through with it. (with scorpi's help of course and that of freya and a few other people... maybe roots kid if i can talk her into it)
life goes on much as it has these past few days. i'm going to tell vicki (waiting for the weekend so we're not so focused on homework) and i'm exploring other possibilties shall we say, with roots kid (though i know thats not going to work... but if her and her boyfriend ever break up or if scorpi ever changes her mind.... and if my grandmother had wheels, she'd be a wagon.) in any case, i'm a little bit happier since i had my fortune told that i would find love one day.
with who is not for me to know, until it is meant for me to know.
(dont ask)
anyways... life goes on, i still write (if you want them, you can ask for them) and i still plot against roots kid and freya (though freya doesnt know what im plotting about this time... hehehe)
as of late i have been questioning my belief in love. and i have now refound it again, stronger than ever, because i look at freya and angelis and know that sometimes love can work out. So I will take faith in the cards and hope it works out for me as well as it did for freya.
but, and i hope you all know this already, i dont force people into doing things they dont want to do. so mutual love is a must.
and love for me doesnt mean i wanna fuck your brains out. i had roots kid asking me if the only reason i liked her was because i wanted to have sex with her. she said some person told her this (no names). And this is complete bullshit. It's me! *sigh*
love is about feelings and emotions and caring and being together and, yeah sure you can have sex, but its not the main focus... its not the reason why you are there.
at least, thats what it is to me. loves funny, because lots of people have different interpretations of what it is.
anyways, im going to bed soon.
interior debates continue, but if things keep going the way they are ... hell i'm losing weight. how can that be bad? i can see the change in my figure when i look in the mirror. i've come to terms with the person i am. i have my education planned out in something i'm going to like doing. Now... if I had a steady girlfriend, life would be perfect. sure theres the day to day little things that piss you off, but if i was in love with someone in love with me and we were together, it would be the best thing that could happen. the little stuff wouldnt matter anymore. yeah, so im not that great a french student, so what? i'm an 80% student about, no better than english (thats only because we dont do pure short stories or poetry or reading w/o responding... grrr...)
getting published would be a pretty good thing also...
anyways... i'm going to bed now. and i hope things work out for me, and for all of you whom i care about. you all deserve to be happy, freya, kos, dark nova, scorpi, even ddms current girlfriend, roots kid.
off to bed... goodnight
// posted by Dep @ 11:09:00 p.m.
