Evil Geniuses in a Nutshell

Now Playing: We Didn't Start the Fire (or as our band teacher spells it We Dident Start the Fire)

Don't ask, he can't spell

Today went bad

I went to bowling expecting... I dunno. I was expecting something.

I get in and I'm ignored by Dark Angel. I startled one of her friends and nearly sat on another, but she ignored me, until I started bowling where she started going "Gaterade" like in the Waterboy.

So, as you can guess, she was bowling with... oh about 4 of her friends. And apparently they'd had this big party the night before, in which they got no s leep and they were making mroe plans for tonight...

None of which involved me.

I bowled my nine games and I was in incredible pain, but I survived. (f I had to do 12, I might haev killed myself)

They left... not a goodbye, not a kiss or a hug, nothing... not even later or ciao.

Now... am I being paranoid? who knows... certainly not I...

But... I'm her boyfriend. The least she could do is say goodbye and hello!

Is it because her friends were there? Ah, I'm back into maybe she's embarressed about having me as a boyfriend... or maybe having a boyfriend at all...

This is beginning to piss me off...

So, obviously, we did not get to talk as her friends took up all her time...

But... I feel so left out. I mean, who wouldn't. She has this group of friends and doesn't invite me over when I'm done bowling... and she never invites me over when she has a large group of friends over... like last night...

I dunno... I'm in a shitty depressed mood, mixed with anger over that stupid stupid stunt somebody did with my files... I'm not even done replacing my poems.

I just... I dunno if she's right for me... I know I have feelings for her but can I live with someone whos embaressed to be my girlfriend?? And whos afraid to show emotion in public?? Maybe she just needs time to get used to the idea... or maybe she can't...

What should I do?

I have no answers anymore... all my theories are contradicted by something she did... nothing seems to fit except she doesnt want people to know im her boyfriend... or she hates me and is just trying to make me feel better... but even THAT doesnt fit... and the first one doesnt fit her personality...

I'm going crazy... I want to tell her all about this but I'm scared she'll think I'm... going too far too fast...

But I'm still not going to breakup with her... I'm hoping she'll change... maybe I'm being naive, but... meh, I'll be naive this once.