Evil Geniuses in a Nutshell

never could quite get the hang of thursdays...

anyways

Today was a long and boring day... first period was physics... forgot my homework (oh well, -1% on my term mark) in which we did something almost interesting... hookes law... (yay *sarcasm*). Then came french, which was more boring, if thats possible. Basically we corrected homework for the whole class. (and 75 minutes of correction can get pretty boring.) English was sortof boring, but I got to listen to my music while writing my critical response in a hurry, since it was due at the end of the period. I didn't get it finished, but I was close (but I was also 150 words over the maximum... oh well.) Last period was math. Now... I'm in advanced advanced math, plus im in my last year of high school... so im in the most advanced math class. (we call it 536.) And we had a substitute today, in place of our wonderful teacher who reminds me so much of myself. He goes so quickly with everything, its at a pace which is actually challenging. This teacher teaches grade 10 normally... and she goes slow... and she actually asked us "Do you all know what an absolute value function is?" Well if we don't, there is something seriously wrong here. Anyways, that was the fun class because I was laughing at how she made us do things. She made us find the absolute value of -12.... and gave us 5 minutes to do it... lmao...

But my day was pretty boring, i'm out of the chess tournement we were having, cause i lost todays series of games 2-1. (I screwed up totally in my last game and lost in like 15 moves... I missed his Queen and my queen being opposite each other and I moved my king away so BAM check and I can't kill it... oh well, shit happens. I'll have to watch for that in the future.)

I'm still in pain, but its getting better. Hoepfully it will be gone by this weekend because I have 9 games of bowling, and im probably going to prebowl for the week after that also... have to call my band director see if i can get times for our concert...

and my angel? I bet you've all been wondering, since I haven't talked about her since monday. Well... you know, I just don't know. Well I do know I'm in love... its fairly hard to miss that feeling... but her feelings? I have one person telling me she loves me and another telling me she is incapable of showing it... its not very helpful... but who said life is fair?

I'm not breaking up with her... but if she does with me, this is the last time, I swear. I'm not playing the game where we're on and off and on and off... that pisses me off. (lol) so its gonna stay off if she does that...

But I really hope we do stay together... I see a lot of promise and potential in her... and I love her. I know she could be so much more than she is...

And I hope she'll talk to me about her problems... she's alluded to many of them, and I find that talking about them, not with a shrink but with someone you love, can often help. So many of the things I worry about seem stupid and pointless when I talk to Freya of them... though I try not to do that because I don't want to drag her down. Plus she's got her own problems without worrying about mine.

I think my angel has the ability inside to love and care... and I'm going to try to bring that out in her, even if it takes years.

I love her...

and I miss her... haven't seen her in 2 weeks... or talked to her since last weekend. We're gonna see each other on saturday... and perhaps tomorrow if she comes online and I ask if i can go over to her place... but we'll see.

later all