tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57900562011-07-08T07:58:10.434-04:00This... is the journal. Read on!Dephttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08024800466432667435noreply@blogger.comBlogger5861100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5790056.post-80337053795107748602008-11-27T22:37:00.002-05:002008-11-28T01:04:14.800-05:00

Holy crap, its been awhile. I bet you weren't expecting this, eh? Actually, I doubt anyone reads this anymore. Comment if you do! In no particular order then...I finished off my awesome computer :D. You can see some pics on Facebook. It runs pretty sweetly, especially compared to other computers I've had. The first day I had it working completely, I put World of Warcraft on... and I never looked

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Nine days later, work is going well. Sometimes there is a lack of work, but never for very long. My paycheque is nice and my computer plans are going swimmingly.I started a new blog for my political and similar related writings, you can use the Corner of Sanity link on the right to view it.Being single is, well, not as fun as not being single but I'm dealing. Life is filled with work, so I don't

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Welcome, my audience, to my humble abode. Tonight, it is time for another journey into the depths that is my mind...Actually, it won't be very long. I'm exhausted and I have work tomorrow.Yes, I have a job. It is cool, so far, and I have good vibes about it. My co-workers seem like interesting people and I think I can relate to them a little more than those at my last job (nothing against those

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Finally, an update.I'm not sure why I haven't written lately - at first, it seemed a lack of motivation. With things sloping down in January, I buried myself in school work and the people at school. All that was at home was memories of a winter vacation with some definite bumps in it. But after that, I left my anger behind and realized there are new and fresh possibilities here... and I haven't

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I think I've already lost youI think you're already goneI think I'm finally scared nowYou think I'm weak - but I think you're wrongI think you're already leavingFeels like your hand is on the doorI thought this place was an empireBut now I'm relaxed - I can't be sureI think you're so mean - I think we should tryI think I could need - this in my lifeI think I'm just scared - I think too muchI know

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The sea is whipping the skyThe sky is whipping the seaYou can hide away forever from the stormBut you'll never hide away from meThe icy cold will cut us like a knife in the darkAnd we may lose everything in the windBut the Northern Lights are burningAnd they're giving off sparksI want to wrap myself around youlike a winter skinYou know I'm onto your scentWe're near the end of the chaseTake a look

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There were nights when the wind was so coldThat my body froze in bedIf I just listened to itRight outside the windowThere were days when the sun was so cruelThat all the tears turned to dustAnd I just knew my eyes wereDrying up foreverI finished crying in the instant that you leftAnd I can't remember where or when or howAnd I banished every memory you and Ia had ever madeBut when you touch me

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School is excellent :). Thanks for asking. I've found some likeminded people to explore some cool topics with, and this is all leading in a promising direction. Class remains difficult for me to go to, but I've been managing. I just have to stop staying up so f*ing late lol.The situation, as I've been calling it in my discussion with various friends (most of whom just listen to me vent and then

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I don't feel any better.My head is focusing on "what if"s and trying to predict what will happen. On the bus home today, it demanded I examine every move I made and wonder why I couldn't have been more open. I think I'm good with the answers I came up with - initial nervousness from talking to somebody I knew there was a possibility of a relationship with. I wonder if it happens to everyone. I

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A note, I'm traveling tomorrow and returning to Ottawa tomorrow evening around 9PM. I may or may not be in a position to check my e-mail or other communications but I'll see everyone at school bright and early on Monday morning :).If you urgently need to contact me... well tough luck. Call my place and leave a message and I'll see how exhausted I am when I get back.A brief update on the whole

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So lets start with my usual New Years stuff, this time postponed because I didn't have time to write it with everything else that's going on.---TRIBUTE TO 2K7---Looking back I realized that I couldn't spell "embarrassed" and still can't without looking it up lol.It was about a year ago that I broke up with Robyn. In retrospect, the relationship wasn't that bad - in some ways it was pretty good, I

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So! the good news, then my rants!Drivers LicenseI passed :) I have my learner's and I can drive and do driver's lessons. Score.SchoolI have passed all my courses, did all my assignments and am on track for graduating after next summer. I love it. Passed all my exams and such.BirthdayI'm 21 :) sweetness. The evening was good, except for one thing I'll rant about later. I got a PSP, a game for it,

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So somebody is forcing me to post :) Fine, I guess I did promise. Onwards!Sadly, my plans have been interrupted by a semi-serious conversation or two. Oh well. Posting later - tomorrow if I get a chance between my driving studying and such!- Dep

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Oh, how I would love to stay up until 2, 3 AM and just write about everything inside of me right now - all the conflicts, the decisions, the stress and the various things I want to get done. There's just never enough time in life.For the next week, my focus must be school (which is why I have to go to bed soon). I'm too far behind and I need to pick myself up and spend a few evenings just zooming

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Alright, rant time.I tried. I sat there and was patient. I tried to offer advice. I tried to be friendly and take you out fun places. I tried to be polite. Fuck. This.You can't degenerate my sexuality (and yes, that's what you're doing and yes it makes you slightly homophobic) and expect me to walk away happy. We're a bit beyond that in this day in age, in case you haven't notice. Its not like I

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The news has been bugging me as of late.Let me begin by examining a phenomenon of our culture - our intense focus on ourselves and what's best for us (as opposed to them).Its seems a number of people look at today's state of affairs and say "this is wrong, how can you run the world this way, won't somebody PLEASE THINK OF THE CHILDREN!" (ok, so I cheered a bit when Mod Flanders died).Some cases?

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NOTE TO MY READERS: THIS IS A (RELATIVELY) SPOILER FREE POST. So, although I'm a day late, I did indeed spend five hours-ish of tonight reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, the final book in what has been one of the most amazing book series I've ever read (and that includes the Vampire Chronicles). My judgment? Excellent. There were moments of The Half Blood Prince I didn't like - but

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A Reminder: I'm not available on Facebook, deviantART, Hotmail or MSN from 7:30AM to 5:30PM weekdays (because I get paid now). I do, however, check my GMail, CEGEP email and this blog on a fairly frequent basis - they are the best way to get in contact with me in a hurry. I also have a cellphone if you need me immediately (posted on Facebook).----The time is here again that I must consider the

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(Before I begin, I'll admit I'm not the... most politically correct of people, the least sarcastic (though I try not to be so in a mean way) or the least arrogant (?). It just comes out like that sometimes, whether I mean to or not and everyone has my apologies if it offends them and hopefully doesn't take me too seriously. But the best solution for you is to tell me I'm toeing the line, in a

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STARCRAFT TWO IS COMING !!!! http://www.starcraft2.com This has been like the singularly most awaited game in my entire life. I... must... play... NOW!(But I'll wait until January 2008... or knowing Blizzard, January 2012)

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Take a look at a photo, see somebody you once knew and wonder where all the time has flown? There isn't anything to be done, only events endlessly repeating and simply you've got to move on. Or do you? Maybe you never can, maybe I'm occasionally doomed to sit here and revisit these moments for the rest of my life, interspersed with times of near joyful ignorance. Today, I miss her too much for my

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Well, if you've been watching over the past hour, you know I've been toying with a new look & feel. Finally I have come to one I am satisfied with. If it's not working for you, then drop me a comment! (Or drop me a comment anyways :)).Where have those links to my homes on the Internet gone? They're now in a handy top menu on your right - it even includes my Facebook now!So what, oh what, has been

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For my more technically inclined friends, I thought I'd introduce you to my latest addition to my projects - the MultiLanguage Bible (or MLB... no relation). Its purpose is to provide computer programmers such as myself who program in a wide variety of languages on a regular basis with a single location to go for for any help they need - including how to do something that you know in one language

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Intent versus Interpretation"Seek first to understand, then to be understood". What this is is a fancy way of saying to make sure you know what you're talking about before you talk about it. And not everyone does it, we're not all perfect by any means - but there's a good reason to try and do it. I find it is so helpful with conflict management - I saw a statistic the other day that in a large

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Blogging at school, through the firewall, is good.What can I say about my life. Its good and yet its nerve-wracking at the same time. I go between positive enthusiasm and negative pessimism about my chances, and I don't think anybody knows how this is going to end up. Sometimes I have the urge just to shut out the world and sit in a little ball on the floor. Sometimes I want to sing and dance and

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I haven't been this hyper in... ages?Anyways, so long story short there is the potential of a relationship that is making me hyper lol - there are obstacles (there are always obstacles) but I remain somewhat hopeful - I'm trying to temper my hopefulness in case things don't go the way I'd like them to. It is a part of life after all :). If it doesn't go, then it doesn't go... if it does go...

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Perception. My greatest example of it is color - we learn to identify colors by the names we give them - different wave lengths of light causing reactions within the human eye. But how does the brain interpret these colors, how do we perceive them? And by that, I mean who's to say that the color my brain interprets as "red" is the same "red" you see? How would we know? If we reversed the number

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This one's for you. You know who you are.What can I say? I sit here and search within my souls for the words that will comfort, knowing there are none that can. I don't have the advantage of religion with quick and easy answers to what happens after. I don't know why we're here, whether or not a person has accomplished anything or if there is even a meaning to life, let alone what it might

Dephttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08024800466432667435noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5790056.post-1171514303175646772007-02-14T23:22:00.000-05:002007-02-14T23:38:23.193-05:00

Lots of people have a problem with Valentine's Day. For some, its a memory of painful things that are better off buried. For some, its a day of lonliness as they sit at home and type (wait a moment... :P). And some people are just bitter for no reason at all.I say its an excuse to eat chocolate. But hey, what do I know.Today is a day to remember the people in our lives who make a difference,

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Hey hey,Well lets update.- HU is going better than ever, a few other members are starting to take an active role in the project and I can only hope we're on our way to a more successful and bright future.- I've been invited to play sax for the school with a singer and a flute player and perhaps a couple of other people. Let the practice begin.- The soap opera... is over for now. I was having a

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I missed the 555th post two posts ago. My apologies!The last week has been... I guess insane would be the word. I've been slacking off too much at school and am trying to get back on top of that as well as my various other projects (all of which need some work on my part). I found it in my heart to love Rocky Horror again and am contemplating plotting a movie night. (we know where you live ;)).

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Alright, Nicky, I'll hand it to you. Perfect words. You're right, I have been here before - but I didn't know then what I know now.It was interesting though, because it came up in class today - what would you do if you were interested in your best friend's girlfriend? What's the morally correct choice? And oddly enough, one of the thoughts put forward by the class was the "well, give it up and

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Have you ever... wanted somebody but you knew you couldn't, knew you shouldn't even ask to begin with. With friendship in between long lost love and possible new possibilities, I find myself knowing the right path and yet not wanting to walk it - not wanting to let go of hope again. I can bury it deep within my soul, as I've done before - but there will be a day again when it walks once more...

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Alright, its been a busy few days - things have had time to sink in and I've decided I'm good with the breakup - in retrospect it definately is the right decision at this point in my life.Really what I'd love to do right now is go to sleep... but my head is filled with thoughts (as well as possibilities) - crazy, crazy thoughts that were banished so long ago and yet... it seems more sane, less

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Not entirely sure how I feel about it, so I'll leave commentary for the morning - just thought I'd let everyone know so there are no awkward moments.- Rob

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Well I too am a bit late with the greetings, but they are here.I must apologize, my life has been filled with things to do as of late and other thoughts on my mind... my journal and my Runescape account have become a bit forgotten as a result ;) (I'll go pay attention to it later).The main project that has occupied my time is my Magic:The Gathering game. In a fit of boredom, I started designing a

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Politics are, for me, fun. I don't know why, but there's nothing I like better than the intrigue, the debates and even the political satire. I told my parents that the best part of being a politician, for me, would be watching Air Farce every night and laughing at their impersonations of me. Maybe I'd make a good politician - but I like programming computers to do my bidding too much.But today, I

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Due to a number of Quebec friends (who really are friends and don't act immaturely) being a bit unsure how to take my more recent post, let me assure you that the majority of people I have ever refered to as close friends of mine don't fit into these catagories. Scrabble - you're one of the most mature people I know (though you still know how to get drunk :P). Vanessa - while having immature

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Me + bored = bad.Today, I got bored so I went on Google and found two images to splice together. The result...http://darkelfpoet.tripod.com/flag.htmlI hope you enjoy - I know its not flawless, but I think its good for my first attempt at a serious comedic alteration of a picture and has a message lol.Later- Dep

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I've been a naughty naughty boy - its been nearly a month since I posted last. Lets see...I switched back to Windows from Linux because I was getting frustrated with certain aspects of Linux... like not being able to use the wireless at school.Got back into Magic (yeah I'm a nerd :P), and have spent the last week going through my collection - yeah, nothing too fancy.School is well - there are

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Alright a quick update before I hit the bed.I have a to-do list as long as my arm at least, I'm going to spend a decent portion of tomorrow just writing the todo list lol.I've been very addicted to a new game called SlaveHack which is really cool.And yeah... lots of other things going on but unsure exactly where they're going at the moment, so I'll wait before updating on that. I also have been

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I was just over on Garth Turner's website (he's the Conservative guy who got kicked out for... sharing information with the public... about political decisions)Does anyone else find it odd that Harper would kick someone out for talking to the public when he went on and on about government transparency...? ANYONE?Anyways, I think this is a brilliant idea - I think every political figure should

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Tonight, I have little purpose but to express a thought of mine.I've been trying to figure out what makes a person interesting to me, and I hit on at least an element of it. First of all, I'm going to use the word stereotype, and I want to define it carefully. It is my observation that, while they have unique characteristics for sure, the majority of people can be classified into a stereotype

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(EDIT: I apologize for any long rants about things that have past. It needed to get out, thats all I'll say)Is it not strange, the power of music. It shapes our thoughts, our moods. It associates with things happy and sad, pulling them back. Tonight is a night for thought, for a return to an early time - and though some may call me a fool for lamenting the loss, though some may not understand why

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-----------------------------------------PROJECTS-----------------------------------------Heritage Underground (2): Few bugs left for me to fix but nothing big.Heritage Underground (3): Starting to interview peopleAshes's Website: Not begunChrissie's Website: Not begunCS PowerPoint Presentation: Outline Created-----------------------------------------THOUGHTS--------------------------------------

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A long time ago I had a chatterbox for the people too lazy to post commentary - it returns today! Enjoy.~ Dep ~

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So the other day, I saw Rent playing on the movie network and saw my chance to make up for not seeing it in theatres like I meant to.And now I'm addicted. The movie is extremely powerful and has much excellent singing in it it. Parts make you want to break down and cry (which I did) and parts make you want to get up and dance. Parts make you laugh outright and parts make you angry. It made me

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Where in the human heart lies emotion? Where is it that soft words or haunting melodies can pull and tug upon us; what hold have they. Silent thoughts and building momentum, it isn't logical, it isn't planned. You're carried along as flower petals on water while Ophelia prepares for her dive. And maybe its just the change in the seasons. Maybe its the repetition that surrounds you, but somehow

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1984 and Newspeak aside, words are extremely powerful. With them, we can express concepts, we can create beauty and we can communicate thoughts. I find myself enamoured with good poetry and even with excellent writing in general - alliteration is just one of the many techniques. For example, Poe's "The Raven" always captures me with its unique rhyming pattern and that is one of the reason it is

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Alright, alright - I was about to go to bed and then I watched CTV's news at eleven and had to write. Because I hate news anchors and this is a perfect illustration of why.The guy who shot up Dawson College apparently dressed in a gothic fashion, was a member of vampirefreaks.com (I know a few members there) and such. The wonderful people on television show this on TV just like the case where the

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(Thank you Ash for prompting yet another edition of my droning.... I mean journal).------------------------REALITY NEWS------------------------I was watching the news today and I saw something that put me in a good mood for awhile :) the headline: 'Astronaut loses hold of bolt during spacewalk'. Because this is of such vital importance to the nation, really. I would like to suggest my own to CTV,

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Yet I do feel like writing.It is one of those moods where I am highly motivated to do something, yet not motivated to do anything at all but sleep.In external news, Heritage Underground was completed today. It'll be a couple of weeks to finish putting all the components together, adding more teachers and what not, but the big parts are finished. Already I have a list of ten bugs to fix too

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So welcome back everyone. First of all, a couple of RL updates before I enter my brain for an hour or so.------Heritage Underground: My major project is mostly complete for the time being. I have a few last things to tidy up and add, but no more 8 hour 7 days a week coding sessions :).School: School is going well... once again the insane people elected me class rep, plus I've still got a few

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--- Brief News Flash ---Due to my own incompetance, I've managed to set back my own project by a fairly large step, so this week will be mostly devoted to lowering my blood pressure and getting the work done again. My apologies.------One of my classes this semester is Shakespeare - and I love Shakespeare. But one of the more striking points which was already a part of my philosophy but which was

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Forgot somethings. I went into the dentist on Wednesday. The good news is I have no new cavities. The downside is I need braces. So for the next few years, I'm going to look like a complete geek :).Also, I had my first evening of coordinating on Wedneday (with the assistance of another person who was also doing it for the first time). It went extremely well and we got awesome reviews for the

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Well its not really a pen, but lets move on.Everyone Note: As of now, I have switched to an easier-to-read sans-serif font. Enjoy :).The life... she has been packed. We're in the eleventh hour of website development and I am spending literally 12-16 hours a day on my laptop coding the blasted thing. After two solid days of work (and messing around for a couple of previous days), I'm a bit over

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Man, oh man. A new all time low for attendance at a staff meeting. Out of the eight people supposed to come - three showed up. And one had to leave after an hour. But on the positive side, we got everything hashed out - its always good to work things out. Once again along our course...The next two weeks are going to be insane. I have to go into the college to see about adding courses. I failed

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My apologies to everyone. My lack of a laptop has been preventing me from going online often. I have thus fallen behind on everyone's lives (I mean journals) and will be spending probably a day reading when I get back lol.The laptop power cable should be coming in on Tuesday to Friday this week.Big update promised for when I get back on my life lol.Later~ Dep ~

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Whew, its hot out here.So the vacation has been going well. To all those who have been chatting with me on MSN, my apologies for the slowness and the abrupt departures on occasion. I am currently limited to a pentium I with 40Mb of RAM and 28.8kbps pay-per-minute dialup connection that I need to sneak on when no one is around.The vacation is good - they tried to force me to go to church but I

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Just thought I'd let everyone know that I will be on vacation in New Brunswick starting today until the 23rd of July. Have a good one all!~ Dep

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Holy shiznack. Its been... 25-ish days?My apologies to all of my friends who have been a little left out recently. I have been spending literally every night over at Robyns, since its quieter there lol. I have slept here I swear, three times.Things are going well with Robyn :) I am happy, she is happy. Especially because its not one of those moderately obsessive relationships like I tend to have

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I just watched Harper talk about the terrorists arrested. Paraphrased (if you can find the exact quote of what he said, I would like it lol) he said that the terrorists attacked Canada because of our way of life and our devotion to freedom, diversity, democracy and the rule of law.Please note that contradicts what he said yesterday when he announced the reopening of the issue on same-sex marriage

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Bad news on the telly this morning. For those of you living on Mars or possibly underneath a very large rock (or maybe just don't like/have a TV/radio/friend), the RCMP arrested 17 terrorists in the Toronto area this morning with 3 tonnes of ammonium nitrate (that's bad lol).In additional news, Harper picked today of all days to announce that there will be an open vote in Parliament on the issue

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In regards to the comments on my last journal, see my comment about woodwork and not bickering (not you Eve :P). I'll leave it at that.I apologize for my abscence as of late - I've spent the last 2.5 days at a friends place and right now is the first time I've been home longer than an hour. Her internet has also been out, so there's been no way for me to get online.Upcoming Events:Tomorrow:

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Oh wow... everyone's just coming out of the woodwork today lol.I go away for two days and I come back to see not one, not two, but THREE angry comments... from the same person.Alright first of all, I'll agree. Not every Christian is bad. Heck, there are even a few branches of Christianity which I morally approve of (notably: Anglicans and Unitarians... probably a few others I don't know about).

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Alrighty then... today, I was introduced to the most offensive website on the internet. Well there are worse, but those are severely illegal. The site is known as God Hates Fags. Alright, you see where this is going. Enter rant... now.WTF IS WITH THESE PEOPLE. For those of you who haven't seen anything like this on the Internet, go to http://www.godhatesfags.com and tell me it isn't the most

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I'd like to direct your attention to the new link catagory on my journal, the political ones, available on the right. Here you can find links to sites that support the same issues I do. For example, there is the site for Equal Marriage there, as well as the other site I mentioned in my last post. More sites will be available as I find appropriate.Hope you guys enjoy them!- Dep

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I laughed when I saw this on the news. The site is http://www.growupharper.net. They are objecting to Harper's refusal to speak with the national media and ask that you take the time and $$ (I would estimate 5-6$) to send Harper a message - a pacifier.Harper's second latest atrocity (I'll get to the latest in a moment) is his refusal to speak with the national media, include them in press

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with rants... *glares in direction of odd person*Ignorance... quite possibly the one thing I hate in people. I was just informed that there will be a complete ban of smoking in public places (enclosed or not) starting wednesday of next week. I laughed. You'd never enforce such a thing, it would be like the Aylmer curfew - ridiculously violated by all. Did a bit of research afterwards and found

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Wow... an entire week since I posted. Sorry guys, it has been busy.Brief recap of the past week...I got a call from CGI (its a consulting company in Ottawa) in response to my resume, and my application is going to the next level :) - thus there is a chance (a small chance) that I won't be stuck doing the ever cursed job of tech support (despite the wonderful people there... no seriously, I just

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Deep on the night side of the life, the world seems cold and dark. You wonder where the light is and what has the veil done to the truth, but never will answers be revealed. Where did the Shadow appear from, how can one afford to fall so far. Does this dark corner of your mind really exist... you try and try to deny that this is you, but the proof is mounting, the events become more defining.

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AHAHAHAHAHAHA!The wonderful job of doing tech support. Here is a song I found (a parody)(To the tune of "I will Survive")At first I was afraid I had lost my mind,The phone would ring, I'd do my thing and get malignedBut then I spent so many monthsHelping users dial outFilled with doubt...About my ability not to shoutAt users whoCan hardly thinkI showed them how to click on thingsand even pulled

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Now before I get the screaming shouts of anarchist among other things... I'm not proposing anarchy. I see benefits in having things done at a federal level. I just want to make a point about democracy and why its not all its cracked up to be.Democracy is built on a single foundation in my mind... the theory that people will generally do the right thing for all people. Now... those of you who know

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Addition to earlier today:One of the thoughts I had on the way home was that banning abortions is the wrong approach. Abortions exist for a reason - whatever the reason, people don't (or shouldn't) have them on a whim. Why don't you, instead of staging these massive protests and doing all your stupid nonsense, examine WHY people are having abortions and look at fixing that. Better birth control,

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But before the news - Eve, you're right, there would be so many parents who would complain about their kids being turned into 'sex fiends'. But at least, they would be sex fiends without children lol. Fuck the parents, teach it to them anyways. Its stuff they need to know. We insist on lessons for driving to make sure they know how to drive, we give them all kinds of mandatory information about

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(Random Title lol)I'm here at school, an hour before my first exam (and the most difficult... which is good, since I get it out of the way :)). The only exam that has me more worried is the English exam on Monday, since there's the chance the prof will refuse to let me write it as I skipped the last month of classes in protest. But I have the knowledge to pass it if I write it, so fuck him.

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Sorry, its been hectic. Lets see, what important things have been going on...Decided long distance relationships aren't a good idea for me after a lot of thinking about what it would really be like and not what I would want it to be like. That was my problem last time and I think its good I didn't slip into the trap of thinking overally idealistically this time around lol.Installed MSN Plus the

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For reasons I'm not entirely certain off (its been a long day that I spent immersed in thought), I find myself in one of those snappy moods where people who piss me off get their heads snapped. I'm hoping its just exhaustion and that tomorrow will be better.I hope.Good night world.- Robert

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Has it really been 4 days? I believe it has. Thus, there shall be posting.Life has been fairly quiet this past week. Did some work, thought a lot and watched some hockey. Lets start there.I like hockey, make no mistake. But people who are into it hardcore piss me off. Tonight is a perfect example. I like watching hockey, even if I don't know the teams, and I have my favorite teams... Ottawa being

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We have two days of catching up to do!Yesterday, I saw Silent Hill. It was a good movie - I can't speak for any similarities/dissimilarities from the video game but this had gore, suspense and was generally good. Hopefully most of you will enjoy it as I did. I still have to see if I can find time/cash to see V for Vendetta again.Too much physical activity for me lately - I think I pulled

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So those of you around yesterday were probably wondering about me dropping off the face of the planet and not returning when I said I would. My apologies to all - my cable (Internet and TV) cut out completely and we just got it fixed earlier today (something with the line in the yard). Ah well - the person I wanted to talk to was busy studying anyways and its probably good I wasn't around to

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Alright, lets get the good stuff out of the way.- I've been offered a job with Statistics Canada again, doing tech support and testing. It was good work, good money and I'm going to call them back tomorrow. I'm hoping its not full time over the summer, but we'll have to see. I may be able to arrange some time off to go up north again.- PTY was good tonight, we listened to some old folks talk

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Congrats to Eve... she knows for what :PSpeaking of, Eve - I haven't forgotten that I want to talk with you.I've been having problems with the wireless this morning and after I got it fixed, MSN worked briefly before I started burning DVDs (which requires me to close everything and just let the computer work) after which MSN did not work. Hopefully its just Microsoft dropping the ball again and

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Somehow I managed to get into 'the zone' and code for five hours straight without noticing. On the positive side, I'm a good deal closer to having an assignment complete (one screen out of four and most of the behind the scenes stuff). But now it must be to bed with me, for tomorrow is easter and I have many visits to make to relatives.Eve and I joked about me moving to Sudbury (well I'm going to

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It's too late for me to be updating. Why? Because exhaustion brings to mind too many thoughts. And, if that wasn't bad enough, exhaustion makes me the most honest person ever. Not that I tell outright lies on any kind of a regular basis, but the amount of questions I dodge and the specifics I give you increase as my caffeine levels/energy levels decrease. Right now you could ask me almost

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Alright, I agree... I've been silent too long here. Why? Because my mind is stuck in a loop and I can't make it break.I've written two poems - both are going on my deviantART ASAP, but one is going right here, right now because it has special significance for somebody who may or may not read this.-----The Knife (April 14th 2006) Warnings that went unheededinto the dark, you cast meThe words

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Up til 2:30AM again... bad bad Robert. I must really learn some decent hours one of these days, if only for the sake of my marks.Tomorrow is going to be an extremely busy day. I must attend English at either 8 or 9 so I can receive my presentation assignment. Then I have three hours to piece together my assignment for web programming followed by five hours of class. If I'm not done, its staying

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Yes, welcome to the 500th post EVER in my journal.Today I slacked off and skipped the first two hours of class... which were also my only two hours of class today. My thought is that people shouldn't put class at 8AM and expect college students to be there regularly.Today was a bit of a rollercoaster on the emotional side. I just can't think of a way to come out and say what's on my mind to her

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Today:was moderately good. School was worth sleeping through and I got to play a bit of badminton in there. Tomorrow is a Friday schedule, which means class 8-10 then I get to leave! I have much work to do though, considering the three labs I still need to make up and the assignment due on Thursday... not to mention some English stuff coming up, some French stuff coming up... I think that's

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Its interesting how much talking to oneself can help to order your thoughts, if not answer your questions. In fact, anytime I answered a question it was only with another question. There were a number of topics in my head from relationships to my past to other people.Many questions and options were eliminated in my mind, on the question of relationships. I wish, some days, that there was a much

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I don't know what it is with me.Today began with my brother's birthday party - many annoying young children... and I found as many excuses to get out of there as possible since not only were there too many people, my brother's friends are... not my kind of people.So I accepted a friend's invitation to come play poker with the guys from my program and thats what I've been doing for the past seven

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I cannot believe I stayed at school til 9:30pm working on one project since 10:30AM. Eleven hours. But it is done.The interesting conversation (sparked by the moderately repetative conversation) was of the predicaments we get ourselves into in the romantic entanglements.Speaking of romantic entanglements...Vagueness aside, I realize that I was jumping the gun. It is too soon... and thats always

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Alright, time to take a step out of the mentally abstract world the last few posts have been in and give you... my real life.......Yeah.Not much has been going on here lately. My marks are dropping by about 10% from being on vacation and all, I still have little to no social life and yeah.Small wonder we live in my mentally abstract world here on my journal.The only thing of great interest is my

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The thoughts in my head are... difficult to express to anyone at the best of time, most of all, the person I refered to as \she\ in the past journal entry (thank you Eve for your compliments). It is a combination of many things. Promises I once made to myself that I now contemplate breaking. Worries that I'm not giving myself enough time, worries that it's too soon to even think about speaking.

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Tantalizing thoughts and dreams before me, that poke and twist at my very being. Is it not horrid to watch, wishing to know, to know the truth if /she/ dreams as well, or if your fantasy holds no reality. And while many would seek to answer that question, to settle it one way or another, I sit alone in high castle and watch the world turn beneath me - without word and without deed to give light

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Alright, I've said it before and now I'll say it again. The school system sucks.I've had few teachers I consider to be truly good teachers and even fewer who I know are going to stick in my head for a long time. In fact, they number two... Brian Smeltzer (quite possibly my favorite teacher... and he taught Math) and Elizabeth Shales. Shales (even I can't get used to calling her Liz... high school

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I went and ranted a bit in my LiveJournal... well not ranted, more like talked about whatever came into my mind over the past two and and a half hours. Just letting my LJ readers know (if you'd like to be a LJ reader, just add me - darkelfpoet).- Dep

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I have returned safely from the visitation and the adventures. While I am still in dire need of a shave, all is well. As for my last post, it was the random outpourings of what my mind was thinking about. It probably didn't make sense to anyone, but it was good for me.The vacation was good for me, I really needed the time off. Now I just need to get back into the swing of things and then see if I

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I feel a darkness... not a painful darkness, but a calm and deep darkness, gaining upon my soul. With every song, every thought it builds in silent fury...And now... the piano...Despite having seen only nineteen winters pass, I feel as though it has been so many more. The lines on my hands that I did not notice before... a calmer acceptance of things.And the old pictures on the shelves and in my

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Yes... I saw it at the urging of Ashley and Lisa... and it was awesome. I wish to see it again... and I wish to own it.You must see it, if you haven't already. And even if you have already... see it again.It just says so much about government, society, control... everything. It's beautifully done, beautiful... I won't say anything more because I don't want to ruin it, but go see it. Really. It

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