Sunday, October 21, 2007
Stay Up And Write
Oh, how I would love to stay up until 2, 3 AM and just write about everything inside of me right now - all the conflicts, the decisions, the stress and the various things I want to get done. There's just never enough time in life.
For the next week, my focus must be school (which is why I have to go to bed soon). I'm too far behind and I need to pick myself up and spend a few evenings just zooming back onto the path. Three assignments, a test this week and a couple of weeks worth of project material. This is not good. But I'll be there soon.
I'm also redevoting myself to my weight loss plan. Oh you want an update? I've been relatively soft drink free for about 6 weeks now and its just an amazing feeling. My headaches are nearly gone, I feel better about myself, less depressed, more energetic most days. The downside is, again, I can't stay up as late as I used to lol. 11 is about the latest I should (And its already 11:30... crap). I've also been on my exercise plan for three weeks now - two hours of biking every weekend and three hours of badminton at school during the week. Its going swimmingly and hopefully I can keep this up - my arm is already beginning to wear off lol. The biggest news is that I'm down to 291 this morning from 305 at the end of the summer (I know, 14 pounds in eight weeks-ish). Freakin' awesome.
After I put my school life back on track (Monday evening if I have it off), I have to take some time and look at my relationship issues - why? Because I'm not sure what I want to do about someone in my life... or rather, I know what I want to do, but is it what I should be doing and how do I go about doing it, and just where are my boundaries? More details later.
And then, and only then, can I put some serious time into my work for Jon - building websites and such. Various IT projects of mine have been put on hold because of all of the above (and my love of playing Magic when I should be in class) but hopefully I can get some started again once I'm back on track.
Some days I wonder if there is a purpose to my relationships - in some way, all of my relationships have taught me something. Some even seem to deliberately put me into the position of another person I was dating so I can see their side of the issue. Am I subconsciously seeking out these experiences, to better understand everything? Or is it that giant laughing face of fate, toying with me lol.
There's no denying this feeling though... I think I'm about to start once again. Welcome back readers and stay tuned for another post later :).
For the next week, my focus must be school (which is why I have to go to bed soon). I'm too far behind and I need to pick myself up and spend a few evenings just zooming back onto the path. Three assignments, a test this week and a couple of weeks worth of project material. This is not good. But I'll be there soon.
I'm also redevoting myself to my weight loss plan. Oh you want an update? I've been relatively soft drink free for about 6 weeks now and its just an amazing feeling. My headaches are nearly gone, I feel better about myself, less depressed, more energetic most days. The downside is, again, I can't stay up as late as I used to lol. 11 is about the latest I should (And its already 11:30... crap). I've also been on my exercise plan for three weeks now - two hours of biking every weekend and three hours of badminton at school during the week. Its going swimmingly and hopefully I can keep this up - my arm is already beginning to wear off lol. The biggest news is that I'm down to 291 this morning from 305 at the end of the summer (I know, 14 pounds in eight weeks-ish). Freakin' awesome.
After I put my school life back on track (Monday evening if I have it off), I have to take some time and look at my relationship issues - why? Because I'm not sure what I want to do about someone in my life... or rather, I know what I want to do, but is it what I should be doing and how do I go about doing it, and just where are my boundaries? More details later.
And then, and only then, can I put some serious time into my work for Jon - building websites and such. Various IT projects of mine have been put on hold because of all of the above (and my love of playing Magic when I should be in class) but hopefully I can get some started again once I'm back on track.
Some days I wonder if there is a purpose to my relationships - in some way, all of my relationships have taught me something. Some even seem to deliberately put me into the position of another person I was dating so I can see their side of the issue. Am I subconsciously seeking out these experiences, to better understand everything? Or is it that giant laughing face of fate, toying with me lol.
There's no denying this feeling though... I think I'm about to start once again. Welcome back readers and stay tuned for another post later :).
